Hummmm things a wierd but the what am I to expect a merical oh well. I guess things are as they should be. And its funny I can tell that James has used everything from my past aginst me But then again I should have seen that comeing. If you have noticed by the way I'm talking, this entry is stricky a letter to you. Its wierd I never thought I would even have a chance to talk to you again and here I am hopeing to get to see you. I will though at least long enough to give you the letter I promised you. I dont know everthing seemed so easyer when I was with you. Now everything take time for me to figure out But then again I know now that I was worthless back then and was just lucky to have even get to know you. Who am I really ? Thats something I would love to know. I once thought I could answer that question but now its nothing but a distant memory. Well thats all for now. I love you and I truely miss you!