Things are well simply fake, and the sad thing is I amlost rather it be fake than not be there at all. I fear so much being alone loseing the woman that I love and loseing my baby girl. I dont know if she left me if I would be able to stand looking at my little one she reminds me so much of her mother. Oh well for now at least I have this fake happyness from her though I know she is not happy being with me and I know she doesnt look at me like she used to she lostthat spark we used to share. I dont want to be alone I dont want to hurt. I love her so much the both of them. I just wish I know how to be better to just be good enough oh well I guess only thing left now is time to see where this goes. Hopefully I can help her find the feeling that she lost hopefully I can help her find the love she had for me. I love you so much Blair you still are and always will be my everything