So it seems that things are getting a little better for me though I am not sure if I should completly let myself fall into this feeling once again or not. My beautiful Wife and myself had been haveing a lot of problems. But it seems that it has had an almost dromatic change over tha last I weould say almost a month now. I can acctually tell that she cares. I almosty bursted into tears when she told me she didnt want me to leave before this underway. I havent heard her say that in a while. Hell it was to the point at one time she told me she rather had me gone then home so yeah its a really good change. I cant stand being away from her though I am not sure she can tell it. Oh well I guess she would see how I felt if she even read this snymore but in a way its good she doesnt I guess I can let things out that I kinda want to tell her so I dont mind if she reads it but I dont have the nerve to ever tell her to read it lol well I guess thats all I got I love you beautiful With all my heart and soul