Another boring day. Well its funny I'm now talking to two people that I thought would never say another word to me. Oh well anyway, I just remembered a dream I had a few days ago Me and my ex were talking and alone in what seemed to be a hotel room and she told me that I had 2 hours to do what ever I wanted but after that she was out of my life. Then I held her for two hours. Anyway thats about all I have for yall today one to my little message thing. though its funny she now knows I have a diary I just havent told her which one to look at yet. Well you know now that this thing exist I just havent let you read it. I guess its because I'm scared what you might think if you do. I guess Its because I'm glade your talking to me again and I'm afaid that if you read this you'll disappear all over again. I know you are just thinking of me as a friend so thats part of what holds me back. Its because I still love you and would do anything just to have you back but most of all even over that just for you to be happy. Well I guess thats about all I have to say I love you and I miss you.