**i'll be honest, i am seriuosly not sure what to do at all right now. i thought i was over everything cuz i realized i really do love my boyfriend and nothing will ever change that. but tonight might have changed my mind that my boyfriend still wants me in his life. **we fought tonight. he got mad at me cuz i was trying to tell him what was on my mind but its always the same thing so he got mad..which i can understand. but before he got off the phone he made it clear that he wanted me to come over tomorrow and he said he loved me. ok so that was good. i thought everything was better. **then he gets online a little while later, which is odd cuz he was supposed to be sleeping, and we talk for a bit. he apologizes for being mean to me and stuff. then i tell him i love u and hes just like love u 2. u could just tell there was nothing in it. even on the computer. so we talk a little bit longer and then its time for him to get off and go to sleep. all i got was a goodnight babe. no i love yous, no see u tomorrows, just goodnight babe. he ALWAYS says i love u. even if we talk for like 3 seconds he finds time to say it. **so now i'm worried we might be through soon, which would suck very badly. i really do love him....and i dont want us to end...but if it does, then he wasnt the one for me i guess. i do love him...with all my heart. i just think he might be finally tired of me. which really would suck. **so i see tomorrow as sort of the test to see if anything is wrong with my relationship. i'll be completely honest with him. i'll be like this is how i feel, tell me if i'm smoking something or if im right. if i'm right, i might be single by tomorrow night. if i'm wrong, i'll be so damn happy. **crosses fingers and prays for whats supposed to happen in my life.**