i'm so nervous and i'm trying so hard not to admit it out loud that i'm nervous. tomorrow i have to work. man the phones. i'm just so nervous that my words will get jumbled up. i dont know. we need this business to work cuz all of our money is in it. i just need to pray hardcore and just have faith that its gonna be ok. i need to relax but its really hard to. i thought working at home was gonna be so easy. its not. its scary and i dont wanna do it anymore. but at the same time, i do. i just need to have faith. it'll be ok. my emotions are all fucked up tonight. i'm not really sure why but they are all going crazy. i'm super sad for some reason. i just want to go in my room and cry but i dont know why. we watched a movie called Crash and that was such a great movie but soo sad and i'm thinking thats what put me in that mood. i'm just...sad. it needs to stop. i feel kind of empty. ugh i dont know. finals are on tuesday and i'm completely scared to death. if i fail my math final, i fail another class, my parents kill me. i just need to study sooo much tomorrow. i hate math. its pointless. then my writing class...we have to read some stuff out loud in front of a bunch of ppl. wow can u say embarrassing? i'm having my boyfriend come to watch me. :) its our one year on tuesday, the day of my finals. i'm so excited. i cant believe A.) thats it been a year and B.) that we are actually still together and still so in love. it rocks. i do love that kid. we hung out yesterday and got into a couple fights. that was lame but everything else was fine. anyway, thats all for now. I Love Him