sometimes i think hes cheating on me. i dont have proof....nothing really just suspicion. idk. i just get weird feelings like he could be. it would be so easy for him to. we live almsot an hour away. it would be too damn easy. he could do it right before i come over without me even knowing. its that easy. it makes me so mad at myself for questioning him after a year. but i still do. i dont tell him tho cuz he'd be both pissed and hurt. so my mouth is kept shut. ugh sometimes i really hate life. not really life in general but a few things jammed into my life. like school. i have a math final that i'll for sure fail no matter how hard i study. like a poem i wrote its Inevitable that i'll fail. its just going to happen. it sucks but thats the way of life. sometimes i wish i didnt like piercings. just got my lip pierced and now i'm paranoid about it getting infected. i clean it religiously. i eat whatever tho.... anyways thats all for now. I love Him