well he was supposed to meet me at work today when i got off. he didnt. so i just assumed i was supposed to call and he was gonna tell me he couldnt come over or he would come over later or something. well, his house phone is busy and has been busy for the last hour and 15 minutes. if he knew he wasnt going to come over, how come he didnt call me earlier just to let me know? that i just dont understand. so now i'm a little bit mad, not much, but when or i guess if he calls me, i wont act mad or anything. i'll just act like its no big deal. i'll just pretend i dont care. oh well i'll say. no biggie. i'll see ya tomorrow or something. i'm a rebel man lol. act like u dont care. perhaps..i'll try to at least. my last week of work is next week. i'm sooooooo excited. i'm really sick and tired of ppl there. they really piss me off. i cant stand them anymore. this one guy in particular is really getting on my nerves. he goes through stages where he likes me and then he doesnt. its really stupid cuz i dont do anything to him at all. everything i said today he had something smart ass to say right back. i just wanted to yell at him soooo badly. it was really really annoying and its pointless cuz like i said, i have done nothing to him and hes still really lame towards me. so i cant wait to get out of there. altho i am a little nervous cuz i dont have another job lined up yet. i just dont care. i want out of there. anyway, i guess tonight i have no plans anymore. i'm really mad at him actually. i didnt think i was really upset but i hate when he does shit like this. we got in a fight last night too. his mom wanted him to go with her to pick up their lawn mower and they said i could stay at their house by myself. i was like nah i'll go along. well that was an extremely huge mistake. they ignored me the entire time. it was seriously like i wasnt even in the car with them. they were laughing and joking around and not even kind of including me in the conversation at all. i seriously felt so retarded. i immidiately wished i had stayed home. and when we got there, his mom went inside and left me and him in the car. then he talked to me but i just kinda blew him off cuz i was pissed by then. then his mom got back in the car, and once again i wasnt there. i honestly could not believe i was being treated that way. he didnt even talk to me. not one word. he didnt turn around at all. its like they forgot i was in the car. i wanted to jump out and walk. i just couldnt believe it. i always make a point to talk to him, include him in the conversations just so he doesnt feel retarded. so we fought about that. he thought i was overreacting. well whatever i was doing, he shouldnt have done that. i felt so....i dont know. it was horrible tho. anyway, he hasnt called yet and its about 8:30. i'm mad at him. in fact, i dont even really want to talk to him. i'm gonna go do something productive. TV sounds nice to me :) I Love Him even tho I'm mad at Him. ********************************************* well his uncle passed away last night...thats why he couldnt call cuz the phone was constantly busy and he didnt want to come over in case he cried in front of me. which is lame cuz i've held him when hes cried before. but hes supposed to come over tonight. if he doesnt, i understand. sometimes i can be a bitch lol...i gotta stop that.