i hate him. i seriously do. i dont even know why i stay with him. he has to be a dick about EVERYTHING. he never calls me when he says he does and to be honest, hes been acting really weird lately. and when i said that he got pissed. of course he would get pissed. why not? he gets pissed about everything. he cant have a normal fucking conversation without losing his fucking temper and being a complete asshole. god i hate him right now. i cant stand him right now. if we broke up, i would not care one fucking bit. nope not at all. i'm supposed to go over there tonight. yea right. i'm not going to go over there. he said he wont be crabby. my ass he wont be crabby. and cigarettes dont cause lung cancer. then he wants to get off the phone, which is fine, but i want to make sure he wants me to come over and i want to make sure he wont be crabby. then he gets even more crabby cuz he cant get off the phone right when he says he wants to go. i asked him 2 simple questions. that was it and he couldnt even answer them without being a dick. fuck him then if thats how hes going to be. i think he lies to me too about forgetting to call me. i think he flat out doesnt give a shit and doesnt call. thats fine whatever floats his fucking boat i dont give a shit but stop lying to me and tell me the truth. that would be a whole lot awesomer then fucking lies. i really do not like him at all right now. he said i was maing him stay on the phone. i just wanted to ask 2 questions and he could get off. that was it. i'm not going over there tonight. he said all he has been doing today was sleeping. so why in the hell would i go over there if all he is gonna do is sleep? having too much sleep isnt good for u and it just makes u more tired in the end. call me crazy but being around ur boyfriend when all he wants to do is sleep isnt my idea of fun. then he said no matter what i'll come over cuz i'm whipped. keeping in mind he was kidding, it wasnt funny. so fuck that and fuck him. i know i'm just pissed right now and i'll feel better in a little bit but still..right now this is how i feel and i hate him. i hate him. i hate him. then my friend..or no wait "friend" who is getting divorced isnt talking to me anymore. well its more like its back to what it used to be..not really talking except for work. it seems to me her and that guy she cheated on her husband with only talked to be cuz i was there and convenient. but now that they are aware of everything they dont feel the need to include me in anything anymore. thats fine. i dont need friends like that anyway. i wont be used just cuz i'm the only fucking person around. fuck that. find ur own loser fucker to do that shit to. i did that in high school for 4 years. not gonna happen anymore. wow do i like to bitch. ********************************************* he called me at 8 last night and promised to call me later on. he didnt. he lied. he fucking lied. i cant WAIT to talk to him. wow is he gonna get it.