If I compared myself now, to who I was a year or two ago, I wouldn't see much of a difference. But the people who haven't seen me in awhile tell me that I've changed so much. I guess in a way I have, but if you really knew me, if I considered you a true friend..if you got to know me inside, then you'd also realize I haven't changed much. True, I've become much more materialistic, I'm not as "punk" as I once was [you know..black nails, black tanks, etnies, blasting the guitar solos] but that was the show I put out. If you really were close to me, you would've realized that I was just this little klutz who was a bit insecure with herself and tried to cover up a lot of things. You'd realize I just wanted to get away from drama and the hardships of life, that I just wanted to smile and laugh..you know..be happy. I'm still that girl, its just I've decided to put out another..different show. I was once like her [I won't mention name]. We were so alike in everything and then we began to grow up more. We were once these little sixth grade dorks who bought popciles even when it was 40 degrees outside. I miss how our friendship once was. Sometimes when I look at her, it looks like she doesn't even seem to recognize me anymore. Like, she's notice how I've outgrown my dark stages and how much she hasn't. Trust me, I still have the music running through my blood but I've realized that limiting myself to a certain look just because of the music I like wasn't good. It only held me back from making great friends with people who were so unlike me. Diversity is amazing. And that's what I am..diverse. I am so many personalities squeezed into this little 5 foot body. I'm usually a happy cherry girl who just smiles and laughs but I'm also the deep writer who can describe things I'm going through with such intensity that I sometimes surprise myself. Then I'm the adrenaline junkie who'd do anything for the fun of it, but I'm the insecure girl who hates being alone. I'm that girl that you say is spoiled and has never worked for anything in her life, yet I'm the girl who's faced so much prejudice for my family, my look, my skin, my music, my friends, my religion, my culture. I'm that girl who can be so misleading and who loves to play with boys' minds. I'm the flirty girl who girlfriends hate. And I'm sooo much more. I can't define myself for anyone. I won't. Because its just not possible. So before you call me a prep, a punk, a goth, a nerd, a skater, a bitch, a whore..get to know me first. I promise. I won't judge you. [TO ANDREA: I'm listening to In the End by Linkin Park right now, and it reminds me of the bus ride to Wis. Dells where we literally spent hours listening to this song and talking about how much we can relate to it.]