Today wasn't any better. I guess I could say it was worse. She came to the library third hour..the only hour that I get with him..and she came. Not only does she have to ruin lunch for me, she has to ruin third hour too. Ugh..but I left and went on the computer and I could hear them laughing and having fun..you know all the good stuff that me and him use to do. And then I saw felicia's comment so I decided to take her advice and ignore them..ignore him. It was so hard..I just kept repeating..ignore them ignore them..but I couldn't. After third hour he usually walks with me to lunch..but nope. He was too busy with that girl. (I don't know her name so I call her 'that girl.') And yeah..of course she sat with us at lunch. More like she sat with him. Everyone was gone today because of the computer fieldtrip so it was just me, cynthia, khoua (who never talks so it seemed like she wasn't there), him and her. I think cynthia could tell I didn't want to be there and see them together so we left to go to the snack line thing and she was asking me if I was ok. *sighs* No, I'm not. Its so hard to be happy for him. They arn't going out..but all he does is talk to her, look at her, be with her. The things he use to do with me. And we have this little game we use to always play where we kick each other under the table..and today I kicked him (kind of hard..lol I was releasing my anger onto him) and he got very mad..lol. That's when I knew it was over. I talked to Mike..and he told me that west still likes me more..but no. I can't take it. I just want him out of my life right now. And it doesn't help that everytime when its just me and him he acts like nothing is different and is back to it being US. I just want to be soo mean to him and forget him and ignore him and act like I'm mad at him, then he does those little things that make me forget all about it. ♥EM