benji this is for u: I will give my soul to you in this painful night, I will let my tears shed out to cry you out loud. I will be part of this own-commitment called “lost hopes, far dreams”, I will let everything turn dark and light you inside of me. I will soak my lips with loneliness and dry them with your fake kiss, I will cut myself slowly to print a scar of you on my chest. I will sleep when everyone is singing so you could dream of a life with me. I will blame this matter for making our matter special; I will thank the moon for shining when nothing seems real. I will break into pieces alone so you could solve this puzzle called love, I will let no one take my hopes away cause this chain will never break. And I will stay thought the dimness of the night, and stay quiet until the mountain crashes me down; I will force my skin not tore, even if the only thing I wanna do is rip my heart out and give it all to you. i feel lonely, i need him so much, dont try to understand me, im too messed up without him....