i hate life at this moment, i wanna cut so bad, but i know i cant. my mom freaked out cuz today she made me a blood test and my cholesterol was like 1 point high, thats nothing, and im not fat or anything. but she freaked out, and got really mad at me, at told me that from now on i had 2 make exersice everyday and if not i cant use the computer ar the tv, or listen 2 music!!! shes nuts!!! I CANT STAND HER!!! and now i have to b like on a diet or something, oh adn i hate it so fucking bad!!! i hate it i hate it, AHHHHHHHHH. I REALLY NEED 2 CUT, but i know i wont, so im pressing my fingernails really hard against my arm, oh i need blood really, oh shit i dun know what 2 to, I JUST HATE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!