Millie, today it was so weird. I was in biology class, and then the teacher said that we needed to bring a scalpel the next class, so I asked why, and she said bcuz it was really really sharp and we needed it to cut through a stem or something. But then I felt like some chills, and I imagine the scalpel cutting through my skin, and remembered when I used to cut, and I wished so bad to see blood, it was so weird, I was kind of hungry of blood, and now im afraid to buy the scalpel, bcuz Im almost sure that if I buy it im gonna cut, cuz im so thirsty of the red liquid, MILLIE, I DON’T WANNA BE A FUCKING CUTTER AGAIN!!!!!!