poem:"wonders of a suicide soul" A bullet is all i have, but would u notice if I die? could I erase my name just by pulling the trigger? or should I better use the knife? It doesn’t matter I’m still a lose of control by using ur picture in my every bleeding song. But would u notice if I die? I ask again; please tell me u will carve my name and cry on my grave. And promise me u will keep ur blood inside ur arms, no need to pour more than mine. Would u remember my name and face tattooed on ur heart? I wonder if the puddle of my mud will dry with the sun, can u at least mop it to keep a dirty cloth. And would u notice if im gone? Can u please mourn my face, Keep my memory of me in a trunk, I’ll be happy inside a hole. I finally ask: do u mind if I die for love? Just pull the trigger, it wont hurt… QUIZZ, HAHA: HAVE YOU EVER... 1. Kissed your cousin: ew no 2. Ran away: nope, but I’ve wanted to 4. Skipped school: no 5. Broken someone's heart: I don’t think so.. 6. Been in love: I think right now 7. Cried when someone died: yea 8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yea 9. Broken a bone: nope 10. Done something embarassing: who hasn’t?? 11. Lied: never, just kidding, lol 12. Cried in school: yea when I was like on 3rd grade, haha, I hit my head, lol WHICH ONE? 13. Coke or Pepsi: pepsi 14. Sprite or 7UP: sprite 15. Girls or Guys: guys 16. Flowers or Candy: candy!!! 17. Scruff or Clean shaved: clean shaved 18. Blondes or Brunettes: blondes 19. Fat or skinny: skinny 20. Tall or Short: taller than me 21. Pants or Shorts: jeans 22. Night or Day: night WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX... 23. What do you notice first: hair, face, clothes 24. Last Person You Slow Danced With: i don't know 25. Worst Question To Ask: ask a guy on a band: do u have a gf? THE LAST TIME YOU... 26. Showered: this morning 27. Stepped outside: an hour ago 28. Had Sex: nope never ever. ABOUT YOU... 29. Romantic memory: dun know, benji, ha 30. Your Good Luck Charm: dun know 31. Person You Hate Most: PREPS!!! 32. Best Thing That Has Happened: know benji 33. On your desk: papers, camera, burned cds, buttons... 34. Picture on your desktop: dun know, a lot.. FAVORITE... 35. Color: black 36. Movie: the butterfly effect 37. Artist or band: GOOD CHARLOTTE!!! 39. Ice Cream: OREO 41. Food: OREO!! And taco bell burritos, yai! WHO... 42. Makes You Laugh The Most: scary movie, lol 43. Makes You Smile: benji 44. Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What: benji 45. Has A Crush On You: dun know, I think no one, haha 46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: I just love benji.. 47. Who Has It Easier?: anyone else than me.. 48. Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them: gays.. DO YOU EVER... 49. Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night: yea…. 50. Save AIM Conversations: nope 51. Save E-mails: yea 52. Forward Secret E-mails: haha no 53. Wish You Were Someone Else: sometimes 54. Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex: no. 55. Wear Cologne: no but i think it smells sooo good 56. Kiss: yes 57. Cuddle: yes 58. Go Online For Longer Than Eight Hours At A Time: no, think the longer time were 5 hours HAVE YOU EVER... 59. Fallen For Your Best Friend?: no 60. Made Out With JUST A Friend?: no 61. Kissed Two People In The Same Day?: no 62. Had Sex With Two Different People In The Same Day?: no 63. Been Rejected: yea… 64. Been In Love?: didnt you already ask this? 65. Been In Lust?: always. 66. Used Someone?: eek i don't think so? but probably. 67. Been Used?: ha most likely 68. Dumped Someone?: yes 69. Been Cheated On?: kind of 70. Been Kissed?: yes 71. Done Something You Regret?: yeah WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON... 72. You Touched?: the keyboard, haha 73. You Talked To?: my dad 74. You Hugged?: no one 75. You Instant Messaged?: luisa 76. You Kissed?: Donald, along time ago… 77. You Yelled At?: um mom probably? 78. You Thought About?: benji 79. Who Text Messaged You?: daniel 80. Who Broke Your Heart?: no one 81. Who Told You They Loved You?: benji!!! MORE ABOUT YOU... 82. Color Your Hair?: brown 83. Have Tattoos?: No 84. Have Piercings?: in my ears, but who doesn’t? 85. Have A boyfriend/girlfriend?: i wish. 86. Own A Webcam?: no 87. Own A Thong?: I hate them 88. Ever Get Off The Damn Computer?: yep 89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: what? no 90. Habla espanol?: si, y no me gusta 91. Quack?: quack HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU... 92. Stolen Anything?: no 93. Smoke?: no 94. Schizophrenic?: its a possibility 95. Obsessive?: yes 96. Compulsive?: yes 97. Obsessive compulsive?: yes on certain things 98. Panic?: not recently. 99. Anxiety?: yes 100. Depressed?: more than i'd like to be