today was my first day of school, it was so fucking bored, ahhh!! today is valentines, and i kind of hate this day, i dun know i just think is girley. but i was gonna call benji cuz i have lot of time without talking 2 him. so i called like 2 hours ago and a woman answered, and i couldnt hear her very well, and she said benji wasnt home and stuff, and then she started asking who was calling him and why, and i was kind of freaked out. so ive just called him again 2 c if he had arrived, but the same woman answered and she was like: oh no benji is not home, but she sounded like so sarcastic. and i fucking bet that he was home!!! oh im so pissed at the time, mayb hes grounded or something, but ahhhhh grrrrr im just pissed. cuz my day turned out to b so lame and stupid, and frustating, cuz i can never do things the way i plan, oh shit FUCK U ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna cut!!! im so pissed!!!" im gonna post a poem benji wrote 4 me, i love it, ill c if it chill me or whatever, tell me if u like it... thank you for making my life worth living thank you for loving me to see your face to hear your voice, is taking away my sadness... to be in your presence would be to bask in the light of the full moon in a heaven that never existed before to kiss your soft lips would be to kill me inside and make me reborn just seeing your face makes me happier, so imagine what being in the presence of a goddess like yourself would do to me imagine that life we always dream of, imagine the happiness we could have come in to me and see me twisted faith, my love for you embraces my soul... my soul is yours forever more, do with it what you will, break it, burn it, bury it, spit on it. it is yours, please keep it safe so my heart can experience true love. your name, your face tattooed on my heart and soul, for all to see, you make me happy enough to last an eternity just by being within this distance of your face, your soul, your being and remember me if i die... and if you are to remember anything, remember this.... i love you. you are the greatest being to have ever existed... my life before you was a wasteland of sorrows u saved me from myself