Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. My mom said she needed to talk to me (and that means trouble), so I went to my room and she pulled out 2 international phone calls cards (the ones I used 2 call benji) and she asked me what was that and that I couldn’t lie cuz she had called the phone company to tell her the phone numbers I had called. I was so freaked out, and so I said I had a friend in Canada and his name was benji and all that stuff, but she didn’t believe me. I swore it was true and she kind of believed me, and it was true!! And she started saying why did I lie to her like that, and stuff, and then I was crying and saying that I could never b good enough 4 her and stuff. And then she said I was so mean with her, and I never talked to her, and its true, but its just that im kind of afraid of what she’ll think of me. And I told her I didn’t smoke or did drugs or anything. But she yelled and started saying stuff about me. And I felt so fucking bad. And then she asked me why I was so lonely and if I was depressed and I said no, I don’t wanna o to any doctor or anything. And I cried… Then I cut, I cut so bad, it was the worst cuts ive made, I feel so much regret, I dun know what to do. I screwed the hole thing with benji and my trip to Toronto or usa, and shit, now my mom doest trust me, I feel like shit really…. plz some1 help me!!