i've just cut again. i was talking to my mom, and she started preaching about me and my way to dress, and she started saying that i had changed a lot and that now i dont have friends, and that now the only thing i do is listen to music. yea i know im kind of a music addict, but i do have friens, i dont need a buch of stupid ppl following me, i just need 2 friends thats it. And she said that im closing to the world, and that later nobody will accept me, and stuff like that. Im so so tired of that conversations, really, I DONT WANNA B ANYBODY ELSE THAN ME, i wont bcome a girley girls or anything, i just like to b myself, lonely, and "happy". my mom just doest understand, and she made me feel horrible, worthless, so i locked in my room and cut again, yea i cut a lot in my leg, i promissed benji i wont do it again but i just cant help it, its a habbit. now the only thing that makes me happy is benji, i love him, my pathetic life will b better with him around, i love him....