my throat hurts so fucking much!!! i hate it. im gonna make gingerbread cookies today, haha, i love making cookies, lol. xmas spirit, well is not 4 that, the fun is eating the cookies... i wrote this poem yesterday, its called entreaty: And light me inside, let me stare at my right reflect, no chemical intentions this time… Blessing falling like rain, and snow, and I fall like rain in a storm, tender, so tender, distract me furtively. A chant of my heart, (screams), no soft speaking, just me and my tongue, don’t, don’t let me alive as a rock eternally crumbles. Sacrifice, beauty in you, you, always perfect, yes, of glass I’m made you break me easily. Glue me to your chest, I’ll be your shield, Oh!, sweet perilous antidote, heinous memories before you… spectrum, your ghost chases, wait, I’m the ghost, lost in the air, light as a feather, heavy as my love for you; yes, love me for hating yourself, and quietly sleep. Say that the eternity is not enough for us, tell me not to mourn, (do you like my tears?), sing the bird’s anthem of horrified petals, and forgive my intentions, hold my dagger, make my job, no! wait please!, don’t let my chemicals out, better hold me tightly against your heart, never let me escape, crumbs of kisses and pieces of hugs, taste me until your hunger is gone, I can be your object, Try me and see if I can be functional…