I hate relationships, probably because I am a fucking loser and cant get or have one. Why did she have to do that to me, I actually made myself think she would say yes, I should have known better, the only people I can get are people who dont care about me and are coming off an old relationship so they just need a filler relationship. I will be ok alone I am very used to it and well that is a plus for me I guess. whenever I get depressed and pissed like this I listen to lamb of god, it really just does something for me. Thank you to all of my wonderful friends who attempted to help me I cant say how much I appreciate it and well I love you all. I will learn to place all my emotion into helping and being there for the people I care about and my music, instead of worrying about my stupid ass problems and fretting over having a relationship that will never be, I guess being alone is a good thing in this situation, I can pay all my attention to my friends and be a better person for them. Why do I hate everything about myself? I am not good enough for anyone....I cant be the person I should, I cant be that. I am going to go and play my guitar and think about all the people I care about, hope you people have a good day/night.