what in the world is going on right now. I had a great day with rikki, I held her almost all day, I feel complete when I do that, and I feel so much better. I talked over what was bothering me, so thats all fine now....I felt so bad about it. I didnt know what to do, and the fact that I didnt want to go to anyone about it because I didnt want to talk about it with anyone. I hate my stepdad, we have the worst relationship ever....no I take that back we dont have a relationship, we have nothing.....he is a pansy ass fucking man whore child, who is jealous. I cant wait until I can move in with Rikki.....her and I sharing a room together, it will be great. I want to leave this life I am living, and start a new one with the my love, the holder of my heart. All I want is to be able to be with my fiancee and make music with my band and finish school.