I feel like shit, I hate my parents...I hate them so much. How can they be this way to me? How could he infect my mom so much that she has become so controlled by him so much that she hurts me in the process, it doesnt make sense. How could I have let this happen....was this my fault? She sticks up for him and makes excuses as to his shitty ways...she says hes right sometimes and others she just says its all my fault...that i should just do what he says when he says it, then I can avoid the fighting..am I just supposed to lay down and let my emotions be crushed inside of me, am I supposed to give up and let myself be hurt more? Am I just supposed to become the unquestioning follower who cannot comprehend the idea of standing up for one's self? I cant, I will not be defeated like that...