I have been really depressed lately, I think this not so newly found feeling stems from the fact that I cant see a lot of my friends because it is summer. I have been sitting here working on some of the solos of Zakk Wylde from 1919 Eternal I almost have speedball down to the note. But since I got bored I thought I would write again and just talk and rant. The Children of Bodom stuff I am listening to just gives off a happy fuck you vibe, well at least to me it does. I had to go to a stupid baseball game today that shit was more boring than sitting on my couch looking at the wall. I went with one of my best friends Sam and he was with his track team so I sort of felt out of place not to mention I had never met any of these people in my lifetime because of course I dont go to the same school, whenever I do things with people I dont know I always feel sort of alienated and cast out into exile while still have to experience the surroundings.None the less I got through those grueling 5 and a half hours with people I didnt know and I came back to Sams house and we looked up sexual innuendos on urbandictionary.com and now I am sitting here by myself but since I really dont and never really did have much to say I will let you go ttyl.