well these past few days have been wierd, like supremely. I have felt really upset lately at a lot of things, I dont know what that stems from....I really would like to know though. People telling me things that I really dont want to hear is part of it I think, and other people trying to tell me how what my fucking musical style should be and how I should play my own fucking guitar. I also think guilt is a part of whats wrong with me, I hate that shit and I hate feeling it, even though I deserve it. Yesterday was the I dk a day. I was worried all day, I felt really bad and I am sick again, but I felt horrible because I couldnt help someone they told me they were fine, but I dk maybe its just the way I am when someone important to me feels bad, especially well nevermind......I felt bad to but it bluntly, I got picked up from school by David and yeah we went to his house it was mostly fun, but some things just piss me off to no end. Something I found out....it really got to me, I dont know why I feel stupid, and contagious, ohhhh I quoted nirvana yay! *sarcasm* Whatever, I will get over my stupid ass problems.... I love Rikki. peace.