i left school early yesterday because i had extremely bad cramps. i was doubling over. i talked to feruzi until the phone got disconnected but i had to click to the other line anyway. it was my mom and she was stressin out. so she is asking all sorts of questions on how to pray or to talk to God. so i guess i answered them alright. i was happy to do it. on the way home we talked the whole time. about cancer and the different types, mark before and during his death, her work... then brought up conrad. she said she doesnt talk about it and keeps it open so we dont fight or get upset. he betrayed her and it would take time to get that back. she said that she cant control me and its my life. we got home and i got the mail. there was a letter from conrad. so i hid that in my shirt and gave her the other mail. there were pictures and a nice letter. i sent him a letter with stuff in it. and a few days later i realized that i forgot to write half of the zip code. so i was freakin out that it would come back and my mom would get it. but he told me that he got it so its okay. im feelin better. haha.