monday- my mom and i got in a fight... because i forgot mother's day. she was talking badly about conrad and roxy. so out of anger i told her to shut up. she smacked me. i dont have feelings for this other guy. conrad left last night. everyone found out that he was here because my supposed "friends" ratted me out. brittany, i should have believed you. if i say that then you know the 2 i am talking about. so my mom isnt talking to me. and my family doesnt trust me or like me right now. since conrad was getting on a plane last night i was tempted to call Luis and tell him to pick me up and i would get a ticket out of here with conrad. conrad told me that if this is to happen again he is coming for me. and im going to do it. he expects an answer, and i have one. four weeks he is returning... and i will have graduated... four weeks im on a plane away from everyone. my family and my "friends" (all of those who i thought would be there for me but werent). those are some stupid bitches that id like to fuck up right now. my mom hid my birth certificate.... but oh well. she hasnt talked to me. and even if she did, i have nothing to say to her. nor anyone else. i at least know that i can count all my friends on one hand... thats it. she wont smack me again... she wont. and once i am gone, then she will see. this all scares me, but i will do it. i will. just give me a month. thats all. none of this would have happened if they jsut shut up. i asked marissa if i could say that i was staying with her but stay with conrad, before he came. she said it was fine, now she is acting like that never happened. her mom is the one that talked to her. things would have been fine and i would have gotten away with it all. but im kinda glad this happened because it gives me more reason to leave. so now they plan to tell my friends at church, the pastor and one of my good friends. who knows who i will lose now.