yeah, i am getting a little fat. but i know that its from all that junk food. at least i hope so. hahahaha. i dont feel any different, or sick, or any different. I still haven't gotten my period. That worries me a bit. Im about 2 weeks late. My mom is still making remarks about my weight or whether or not im planning to leave. Shit, right now i dont know what i want. I know that i definitely am not ready for kids. I can handle them and take care of them but I dont want them yet. I babysat 5 of my cousins from the ages of 1-12. I didnt sleep that night. Conrad and I have been getting into arguements. I think he actually wishes i were pregnant. He was excited. but whatever. i havent talked to him too much lately. because im sick of the fighting or im too busy. i was considering taking a break.. but i dont know. jose was going to come over on thursday (?) to hang out. but never showed. at least he finally called to tell me that. ass. maria told me what marcos and norma were saying about me working with them. "oh i really like her and she is a great girl but i think that she is not working hard enough or she still doesnt know what to do." thank god maria stood up for me. she was telling them that i was still new and that NORMA, who was suppose to help me out, didnt. she doesnt tell me where things go or how the whole thing is suppose to operate. so i learned from maria. last night was a little wierd.. crazy... something. shouldnt be alone..- - .. together...... I saw randy for the first time in months yesterday. wow....