i just can never get to a working computer long enough to make an entry. my computer doesnt work and i just got my grandparents computer working. im not even going to back track with anything from the days i missed. i will just explain my weekend. well lately i have been getting irritated with my mom... and she has had a bad attitude. its no wonder i dont tell her much. friday afternoon fidi picked me up and we went to this small concert. we met up with a few other people. i drove jennifer to del taco with chris', the keyboardist, truck. that thing is huge. afterwards i went with fidi to the church to set up some chairs for the choir that was going to perform the next day. as soon as fidi took me home and left i called feruzi. he was in the neighborhood and came over for an hour and we just talked outside while my mom and cousins slept. he took me to church the next day. afterwards we all got ready to go hiking. it was fidi's 19 birthday and thats what he wanted to do. so we hiked then his car club buddies were there so i talked to this kid bernard and his brother J. i never met J before and we kept up a conversation. i kept telling him to stop by the church. he said he felt uncomfortable because he doesnt know anyone. i said well now you know SOMEONE. so he might stop by. which is cool. he is a cool guy. we talked a lot and he was really nice. there was this other guy... who was new to our church and he was cute. haha... after the car club we went to eat at chiles. there was about 20 of us there. so when you are in the mountains there is no service for cell phones. it comes back when you get to town. so while at dinner i call my mom and the house phone rings... i knew it was conrad. as soon as she hung up with him he called me. i missed it. so i called him back. he was yelling at me and accusing me of being with another guy... the next was out 2 year anniversary. and he is like "if you fucked up tell me now and we can end this." so i tried to get a word in but he wouldnt let me. so i told him to just shut the hell up. i was embarrassed my friends were there listening while i nearly cried at my friends birthday dinner. come to find out he was drunk after promising me he wouldnt. because bad things are going on with him. so he took it out on me. on the way home i was with feruzi, j, bernard, and daniel. when i got out of the car daniel is all like "can i have a hug?" so i gave him one, the bernard, and then j. while i was hugging him i told him to go to the church next week. he tells me that it is a possibility. i was like dude, im not kidding... if you dont go i know where you live. hahaha. he laughed at me. the next day he didnt even remember most of it... he thinks the guy that gave him the ONE beer put something in it. so he apologized and whatever. i waited for his call at 10. it never came... like he said it would. later i yelled at him just to NOT lie to me. thats the last thing i want and the last thing he should be doing to ME. his girlfriend/fiance... whatever. so i reemed him a new ass. but during this wonderful.... day my grandma got me a prom dress for my 18th birthday. then i went home and babysat my cousins.... and took a lot of phone calls from people. so he and i are okay... things are okay... i just cant keep giving in to it. so sunday im 18. wow. tomorrow is my first day of work!!!!!!! COOL!!!!!!!! the fifth is my grandpa's birthday... and then a week from this friday... CONRAD IS COMING!!!!! i told my mom that my friends were goign to celebrate my birthday that weekend. and a lot of other stuff is going on... so that way i can spend some time alone with him... for 3 days!!!! i know its not much but to me it is... but after this visit, he is going to move here! whoop.