lately im getting the feeling that i worry less. or at least trying to. she is trying to change. she comes to me to get help from. maybe she is going to accept him. i feel that it might happen. but im kind of just blank to a lot of things that i could be wrong in how i feel. maybe she will always not like him. but i am trying to teach her to be the better person and just forgive and forget. perhaps all of my old feelings of worry will return... hitting me hard. i hope not. its for sure. he is coming here. i know that. and i am not worrying what she thinks. i dont know if and when i will tell her... but when i do.. im okay. before he visits i need to get: -prices for hotel/motel -prices for an apartment -prices for weddings. (wow its going to happen) -help him find some job he needs. i need to get a lot of this in the next week. he'll be here in april sometime.