Its been such a long time since I've last posted. And, if I had had my way it would been much much longer. Ever since James and I got into that blow out last Thursday, and he revealed some rather specific knowledge, well lets just say I'm not to keen on leaving anything lying around. Its a terrible feeling, not being able to have a single solitary private notebook or journal. The level at which I hold him to mistrust is rather absurd. I know I shouldn't be surprised by there snooping, after all none of them have any respect for me in general why should my privacy be any different? Its incidents like these that really make it hard for me to trust and respect them in return. You can't gain respect without giving respect, well I gave and they took, and now there is nothing left but bitterness. And thats all I have to say about that.

I do wonder though if they know about this one too? Perhaps not, but you can never be to sure. I suppose I'll change the password. Yeserday (Feb. 23), was Chris and I one month annivesry. I can't believe we've been dating for a month now, it really doesn't feel that long. It was only Sunday (Feb. 21) that we had sex, finally, for the first time. I keep trying to piece together our time line, the dates everything happened and such, but it all blurs together. Regardless it's been amazing. I can't believe I ever got so luckly. I mean I just randomly sent out messages on POF, and everythings been great ever since. I mean wow. Its crazy to think how much my life has changed from just a few monthes ago. Ick, the siren went off, ever since Chris commented on it... I can't help but imagine it as air raid siren from silent hill. When we had a that big snow storm a few weeks previous I happened to be outside in near white out conditions, the siren sounded and it sent the coldest chill down my spine I've ever felt.