I just got done an insane amount of research homework. All that's left is Calc and Physics so yet another night I won't see my bed till about 1 in the morning. My life is so messed up right now I don't even know what happened. It's just all this stuff whether it be at home or with friends, I don't even know where to start. My friends are my life, they always have and always will be, basically because my family isn't the greatest at all. I'm so confused with some of my friends tho, I really don't know what to do. It seems like what they say is different from what they say, even though I KNOW they mean what they say. Does that make any sense? I don't even know anymore... Like I know it's all worth it, but it's so hard to see soemtime and wwith my family teh way it is my friends technically ARE my family. I don't really get to see many of them on a regular basis cause I also live pretty far away from them, so it's hard for me, but I also know there's not much they really can do. It's this big messed up situation and I would feel much better about it if they would let me know sometimes that it bothered them just the littlest. That I mattered even a little. I know that was just a lot thrown down at once, but it did kinda make me feel better. I still have no idea what to do tho......