Alright, I had this big whole entry planned about my life and a specific situation and stuff like that, but it's gonna have to wait cause I just got an urge. Bear with me.... Why does whoever that higher power is feel the need to fuck with people all the time? Is that how he gets off cause if it is he's one sick fuck. It's quite sadistic. Just as one part of you life gets into order another falls apart. Ok, I can deal with that. I can, I've grown used to it. But why when something is dead and done does it need to come back? Why? I don't get it at all. I really thought that was done. I believed it and it was a lie. It makes me think - how much do I lie to myself? If I lied about that there's probably more, right? Well all i do know is that that's back and i didn't even know it was ever there. Could it really be? Who knows. I know I don't.... ....only you are the life among the dead.... [Evanescence]