Why can't you just be happy? (m/ TBS m/)That's a good question. Everything's perfect now. Well not perfect, but it's definately getting better. So why am I not happy? I confuse myself so much. I got into college today, so I have a future for the next 4 years. All I gotta do is get the financial aid. But the weirdest thing happened. I didn't care at all. I found out I got in and it didn't matter and it's definately the place I wanna go. It was just another everyday occurrence. Got home. Drank some iced tea. Got into college. It was liek it was no big deal at all and I think it should be. Stuff with Ed is getting better too, finally. It's only been 46,374 years, but later is better than never. We had a looooooooooooong talk last night and I actually think it's gonna be ok. I mean other stuff is wrong, but it's stuff I cannot change no matter what I do. Things with my family and stuff like that. I try not to let that get me down cause if I did I'd never get up in the morning. Even after all of this something isn't right. I shoudl be happy. I should be....something, but I'm not. I'm indifferent and i can't figure out why. Something's wrong and I don't know what it is and that's the most frustrating thing ever. Something's missing. Something isn't going right. Something's wrong. All of this I know. The thing I don't know is what that something is.... 13: i know something's not right or something' s missing or somehting like that but i don't know what the something or anything about the something at all 05: the human body is a very good barometer of things like this because of the pineal glands dormant ability to read ambiences at a subconscious level which is then conveyed to the conscious level 13: umm 13: ok 05: i read too much weird shit 13: i'm gon take that one on faith lol You [always] call me And ask me how I make it through the day I'm always falling I guess it's just God's way Of making me pay.... [Smile.Empty.Soul]