No, I'm not fucking OK.
I'm not calm. I'm not fine. I'm not o fucking k. I'm pissed and I'm hurt and I'm confused and I want to go somewhere far far away and never come back again. Are you all fucking happy? I said it.
I don't get what you people want from me. I don't understand how I'm supposed to act. My entire life went to Hell in the space of 24 hours and I wasn't supposed to act different? Please, tell me - how the fuck was I supposed to do that? I know that I'm not supposed to take my family life out on people, or other things that happen, especially not on people that I care about, but what am I supposed to do? Supress it? We all know that doens't work. We all know what that happens when I keep things in. When I'm boxed in I lash out.
And you, yeah you, you know who you are.What do you fucking want from me? How do you expect me to see something you refuse to show? Unless you consider abandoning someone when they need you most caring - in that case you need the fucking help, not me.
So someone please tell me, how am I supposed to be? I'm hurt and I'm depressed and I'm sad and I'm angry and I'm homicidal and I'm suicidal and I can't sleep and I can't think and I can't do anything because this past week has been complete and utter Hell and it's tearing me apart.
Is that what you call a get away?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
When you say best friends means friends forever
[Brand.New]
i would just like to share that i love mountain goats because they hop. i'm jealous because i cant hop as high as them. bitches.
you want to rub my fat mans bitch tit.
But even though he is sexy, he's 30.
Don't want anything illegal going on.
Sorry about whatever happened to make you mad/sad.
I usually keep things bottled up inside..I haven't exploded yet but maybe I will eventually.
I hate when I cry and like 50 people come up and are like oh whats wrong...and sometimes its random people i dont know..thats why i dont like crying around people. And once I tell them whats wrong they go..oh sorry and like walk away or just stand there all retarded-like
If i ever discuss whats bothering me i end up crying so i try to avoid that.
because then id be crying in front of someone
wow im so bored. im sitting here singing. and getting frustrated because i suck at singing and the people singing the song are better than me..well they should be otherwise i wouldnt listen to them..
i cant sing and type at the same time.
im so unskilled.
anything can make me cry, unfortunately.
i cried so hard watching one of those feed-a-child programs..there was this baby that was literally skin and bones. i want to give them all my ham and cheese hot pockets. because i dont like ham and cheese hot pockets.
ham is stupid.
seeing starving kids makes me want to stab fat people.
I can't help it.
I say whatever comes to mind.
And i'm really straight forward
which is sort of bad in some ways.
I sing a lot.
During p.e. mostly.
Nursery songs.
I even get people to clap their hands if they are happy and they know it.
I never really noticed how random i was until someone told me my entry bounced from subject to subject..ha i amuse myself.
I'll have to talk to you tomorrow.
My dad is harassing me about going to bed.
It's almost 11..fool i dont go to bed til 1 a.m.
i woke up at 3 p.m. today..im so awake its crazy.
g'nite i guess.