Today wasn't entirely bad. School sucked, but what else is new? I can't even take that place anymore, it makes me wanna fuckin kill myself, but oh well. Band was cancelled because of play tryouts so me and Jean sat around for a while doing nothing. We then decided we were starving, so we made Ed come and get us and drive us places. Then we got back to the school and sat there for a while talking and all, till the other retards from our band decided to show up....early. Yeah, his transformation was so noticeable it's not even funny. It's like when it was just the three of us or even just me and him he's sooo different, but as soon as the others come in everything changes, and that pisses me off so bad. So then we got on the bus for the entire 5 minute ride and marched the queer parade. I'm almost positive if I wasn't a drummer I'd kill myself. I hate almost every other person in the entire band. I can't stand them at all. Anyway, me and Ed finally got to play snare together and we sounded awesome. I don't care how the basses sound, cause we sounded amazing. So then after the parade we went back and here I am. Like I said, not a bad night, even though the day sucked. He wasn't an asshole for once in his entire life, but I know it'll be totally different tomorrow. I don't know what to do about that. I don't understand why people just can't be the same. Why can't they stay the same and treat me the same all the time? It really would be nice. I guess we'll find out tomorrow. I just realized this seems like a happy entry and I'm definately not happy. I'm kinda down actually, but I'll explain that some other time and stay tucked away safely in my false sense fo security for a little while.