The concept of growth always trips me out. I'm constantly annoyed by everyone younger than me and admiring everyone older than me. I'm growing faster and faster by the year. My friends are right there with me even though they've grown, too. It seems like I figure things out just as they become irrelevant. But hey, I still feel like I'm at least a little bit ahead of the game.

I went back and read my entire sitd, which was a trip to say the least. Sometimes I cringed and sometimes I laughed. I started this thing in 2003 at the beginning of seventh grade. My sense of humor was pretty immature back then, but I'm glad I never stopped joking. I was pretty much within my comfort zone my whole life with very little negative feedback, which gave me a pretty naive point of view. I think it gave me enough time to realize that things are really funny before realizing that things are fucked. Not in any necessarily pessimistic way...there are just way too many people for them all to interact sensibly, and now I can laugh about it. I'm going to try to become a professional comedian because nobody ever made something of themselves by not going for it. Sure, I'll work on a career in the meantime. Y'know, to eat and stuff. But I'm going to follow my own path because that's way more fucking mature than leaping straight into grad school for the validation.

Home is home, but I don't feel like I have anything left to do there. College has taught me some things, but mainly it taught me that it can't teach me everything. (Also that people have huge egos.) Now I'm in Paris studying abroad, which is, well, not as different as I thought it'd be. These are the only three places I've ever lived. This summer will give me #4, and while I don't know where it will be yet, I know it will have a lot to show me.

What have you learned lately?