That's right I hate just about everyone at the moment. Today had to be one of the worst days in my life. I know I have no chance what-so-ever with that guy so I'm giving up. I must forget him. That will be hard as hell. He's a senior what was I thinking. I'm such a fucking moron. Anyway so I realized this last night making my morning miserable while I woke up at fucking 5:45 for band. God damn band and it's early morning rehearsels. Then I told Morgan that I was giving up. God I hate love it sucks and you know what I give up on it. This is fucking stupid if I didn't get my hopes up all the time I would be able to be happy god damn it. Anyway then I made it through first period by trying to be happy and shit. But whatever like that's going to work. Anyway second period was spent reading sleeping reading sleeping basically like this. She only caught me sleeping once durring this time. Then third period we had new seats and I'm not as close to morgan as I was before which sucks. She put me up in the front damn it... Anyway I snuck to the back durring our lab thing and sat with her and did it together and the teacher didn't notice. So lunch is when everything went from bad to worse. So I started talking about gothic clubs which brought up a stupid subject of sterio-types. Of course they all were saying how fucking scarry goths were and that they worshipped the devil. And this was pissing me off while I'm saying "You don't know them all! They are not all like that! You don't know!" and they kept going so I got my stuff and said "FUCK YOU!" and left. I went to this little corner to read my book and not think about those fuckers. Then Steven came over and was all "What's wrong" and so I told him. This was one of the few times when he was actually nice to me. Then I told him about how I had no chance with that guy and that I have no hope or whatever so we went to the lunch room to go show Steven who he is. Of course Brittany had lunch there and she called steven over so I continued walking so I could see my guy. And he wasn't there so I was like D:. I walked back over to go to my wall and as I walk by Brittany says "She's such a poser" really loud so I turned around and flicked her off. That bitch is such a fucking moron. She needs to get over herself. She needs to get her little fat ass out of my life. Does she not have a life of her own so she doesn't have to be so stuck on mine? Anyway I walked back to my corner and started to read again and of course Morgan and them come over and were all "I'm sorry". So I was like ok and they gave me a hug which helped. Yeah I'm still a lil pissed off at them which I may sit at a different table tomorow or something just so I can get away from some of those people. Band was even more hell of course. Ben sat there and they were making fun of my fishnet things. I don't care it doesn't bother me. Anyway they're just anoying. I've been so pissed off I'm worried that I'm getting a little too angry and people may be angry with me. I probably need to calm down but I have good reasons to be angry. You understand... Don't you? ~Kristina Hold me tight Until my breath is gone I don’t want this anymore Tainted memories And lies unfold I cry tears of blood For there is so much pain That I can’t keep it inside of me But I still try Maybe you should squeeze me Until I bleed for you I won’t be able to stop Me from bleeding These scars aren’t healing There’s no use in trying When there’s nothing left To try for The last of this is gone So please make this The last breath I make -The Last: Kristina Wheeler-