I'm sorry to all you guys out there that I have hurt. Cause I know I've done it and you know what? I feel bad. I just... Get my mind locked on one thing and that either ruins or makes my day. Then I end up going off on a rant about it. You all arn't living my life but you're trying to help it. I don't know how you can help it. I'm trying to make it on my own. I havn't appreciated things that I have because I've been so focused on this one thing. And then when it doesn't happen I rant about it. And I've been hurting others. And that's what I'm trying to protect some of you from. Sometimes I tend to be a mean stupid person, I'm not going to deny that. I don't know what it is but I don't appreciate some people. I told you and warned you about me. I knew it wouldn't work out ok? I know you probably won't read this cause you hate me. I told you that I was not very nice. I knew this from when I went out with Steven ok? I learned and I didn't want to hurt you. And I didn't want to lose our friendship. It might be different if we went to the same school but we don't. I'm not the same person online as I am in real life. In real life I'm a coward and a bitch. And you can deny that but havn't I shown you already? I don't mean to do it but I do. And I wanted to keep you from this but you kept coming and I don't understand this. Why would you still keep coming closer when I warned you not too. You're right I do have thorns. And that's why I tried to keep you away. The inner me isn't anything more than a stupid freak of nature. I may be nice online but I'm not. I've changed alot since before and you can't fall back on me because I'm different. I hope you realize that I don't want to hurt you but maybe it would be best if we had a little distance between us. You continue to be mad at me and it's making me even more into this mood of this. If you really want me to commit suicide well you wouldn't be the only one and if you truley want that then fine. Why don't you just come shoot me yourself if I did all that shit to you. I want us to stay just friends there is nothing more. There can NEVER be anything more than that. This was the same thing that happend with Steven and I told you what I did to him. Do you really want someone like that in your life. I wouldn't. So I suggest you back off and find someone who will treat you the way you deserve to be treated cause I don't. Alright other than that there is nothing going on. I'm basically being ditched by someone I thought would be a good friend. I'm not sure sometimes it seems that he can be so nice but then others he just shuns me away. Confuzed? I think so. Anyway Sorry everyone. I hope you'll forgive me ~Kris Now we’re broken on the floor She just wants me to share her It hasn’t been this way before She just wants me to dare her The phone rings And she screams "Stab my back, It’s better when I bleed for you. Walk on me, It never was enough to do." Can’t get passed her Falling faster It's true It hasn’t done a lot for you And every time he held you close Yeah, were you thinking of me? When I needed you the most Well I hope that you’re happy The phone rings And she screams "Stab my back, It’s better when I bleed for you. Walk on me, It never was enough to do." Can’t get passed her Falling faster It's true It’s better when I bleed for you I hope that love he gave you Was just enough to save you You nearly broke my heart Just look at what you’re tearing apart Stab my back It’s better when I bleed for you Walk on me It never was enough to do Can’t get passed her Falling faster It's true It hasn’t done a lot for you It’s better when I bleed for you It never was enough to do It hasn’t done a lot for you -Stab My Back:All American Rejects-