So I've realized the error of my ways... It's quite fantastic how much a few bitter words in prose format can really clense one of strange issues. I don't really mind anymore... I just think Jake's going to be a douche. A little. But it's okay. Because God made him douche-like, and I can deal. The dumped diet is going really well for me. I don't stress eat and I've dropped five pounds in five days... just taking it easy on the sweets. I think God's showing me how complicated Jake and I got... I still blame Jake for a lot of things, but mehhh if it's meant to be, it'll happen. Right now, I really think our manner of relationshipness was ridiculous and expendible. I don't really know what we've ever been, so friends is cool with me. I hit on his friends too much anyway. I'm kind of glad this is all sorted out, it was easier to have fun before we got all messy... I don't ever remember being exclusive. I know he fought it. So maybe he'll finally find someone he wants to be exlcusive with one day. I don't much understand him. At all. I think I was so upset because it wasn't my idea to break up... even though I've been contemplating since the third month of our relationship. Hahaha, that's so sad. Meh. I've been saying, "I don't think we'd ever break up, and if we did, I'd be the one to do it." ahahaha, That God, and His silly sense of humor. It wasn't so funny for the first few days, but now, I don't know. I'm not attracted to him anymore... Is that strange? I think so. Meh. Oh well. We're over. In the "us" sense. I think we'll be friends, though. One of those, that I don't care to keep up with after they disappear. Like usual.