i'm not sure if i am still alive, so i will write something in here and attempt to make confirmation.
the past few months have been so busy. i cannot believe that a week from today, i'll be flying somewhere over the ocean, hopefully asleep, waiting to land in london.*
(eeeeeeee)
we've done a lot of set-up this past week, final touches & such, and we are only waiting on our rail passes. we managed to get a london pass, as well as our initial lodging and other transport set up (including the rental car).
the main worry right now is getting on the plane; i am phobic (not just 'really scared,' i mean actually phobicª) of flying, and i've kept it mostly out of mind. last night, however, i had a nightmare about the plane crashing, as well as some unfortunate situations resulting from it, and i was shaking so hard, i couldn't sleep at all afterward - even though i was fully aware that it was a dream & that the whole scenario that took place is, frankly, impossible.
and anyhow, i've got dramamine and airborne, i've been working on breathing techniques, and i'm trying to calm myself by talking to people who fly all the time (my brother, mike's uncle, friends of mine, etc). it's reassuring when people who have been dozens of flights have only positive things to say. (=
i'd update on the wedding, but there hasn't even been time to plan much of it. i know that it'll be my new focus as soon as we return, though for now, i want to be excited for the trip and be able to just relax a bit.
i was hoping i'd have something else to talk about here, too, but . .. really, i've got tunnel vision right now, and it all just ends up being 'triptriptrip.'
this weekend, though, we'll be celebrating my birthday (a week early*) with my family, so that should be fun. i work saturday morning, but after that, i'm free!!!... until 19 may, anyhow. hrhr.
i am definitely going to be looking for a new job when i get back, though. or over there; whichever. woo!
anyhowwwwwwww, time for me to go; i've got to be up early for work, and i've rambled enough for the night. hope you're all doing well, and i'll try to get some photos posted as we go! (=
ps. this entry is far smaller than i thought it was. oi.
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*i will also be turning 25 whilst in london - how cool is that?
ªi can cite some examples if you really want them; i would've automatically, but i'm risking even more embarrassment that way, heh.
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