friday, 9 october 2015 | 0845 cdt

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Wow, I'd forgot my password for some years only to remember today that it was literally the simplest thing ever and that I'm a total dunce in that regard. I mean, seriously, for me: simplest. ever.

This place is not quite a dead zone, but very close to it. I remember the beta days when Scott was still developing it; he was incredibly innovative in a lot of ways, though hindsight is what typically leads to proper appreciation. It's amazing how time re-prioritises and manipulates life.

I wonder if anyone will see this.

I wonder if my crap memory will keep sD in its forefront for a bit so this doesn't sit here capping off years' worth of writing like a lonely ship in the fog.

I wonder if I'm gunna hate what I wrote here five years hence.

I wonder how much wood a woodchu...never mind.

Uhhhn. It's kiiiinda early for me, which means I'm in my pensive state. Soz about that.

Like probably everyone else here, I've defected to Facebook. It took me quite a while to get into that thing, but now, I'm actually forcing myself a break for awhile cos I can't handle the constant barrage of what I perceive to be stupidity and insensitivity. Who knew that nearly everyone in my town was a xenophobic, emotionally- and intellectually-stagnant arsehole?

(Ok, that was a trick question: I did! But it's much, much worse than I'd thought, so. You know.)

I guess it's that time where I actually update this thing!

So. In 2011, I left Mike, who was horribly abusive (like, I have anxiety disorder and full PTSD now). It was one of the best decisions I've made, and I'm undoubtedly still alive because of it. I was smart enough to not procreate with him (so there were no custody bollocks); though he took it upon himself to do within a few months of my leaving with a girlfriend I'm pretty sure he had before I'd left, so everyone say a prayer for that poor child.

I've gone through a lot of changes, but they're primarily good ones. ( 8

I'm now engaged to an amazing bloke, and it's autumn, and I'm happy. That's extremely succinct, but it's really what counts for me. I still have struggles, but I'm handling things much better than I used to, and life is no longer a chore; I actually enjoy it.

We've just moved, also, and I love our new flat. It's fantastic.

I'm also extremely happy that it's the last quarter of the year. For me, October-December are absolutely the best months of the entire twelve, and I get pretty giddy over this. I'm not a fan of gore or that end of Halloween, but I do love the holiday for all of its jack-o'-lantern and batty charms.

Thanksgiving comes after that in the States, which to me is really just a food-laden precursor to that ultimate bastion of cheer, green-and-red decor, and fairy lights: Christmas!

My goal this year is to not give any gifts in my little fam until the holiday itself; I get so excited that I end up turning it into almost a Hanukkah-style holiday by just giving one here and then one there...repeatedly, and to the same person. I'll focus on the decorations and hope for the best.

I think this is where I'll end for now. I'm about to pass out, since I didn't get nearly enough sleep last night, so goodnight...morning...whatever.