im crying just for u. not for me. not b.c im unhappy.. but b/c u r. ur one who i think will always be with me! i trust u... like no one else.. and now i cant take what ur doing to urself. its bad.. and i no u'll never see this.. its kinda liek ur note to him.. except u let him see it.. but i no ull never read this.. but tonight im crying.. b/c everyone cares.. b.c i no what if feels like to be hurt.. and to hurt urself.. when i walked into the commons the day he died it was dead silent and u were crying wich hurt me b.c that wasnt u.. except it was.. it has been u for the past 3 years.. its just u have controlled it until now. that hurt me b.c u are bubbly and happy wit ur usualy downs.. but now ur soo much worse.. and im scared. talking to ur best friend tonight we just dont no what to do.. seeing some one as amazing as u go through what i had to go through except 15 times worse is hard...and i dont no how to help. that note meant a lot and im glad i got u threw that one night.. but there is still ur whole life ahead.. and i wish ur dad could see ur scars and see waht he is doing to u.. but he cant.. and we are all hear.. we just dont no wht to do.. we love u!