Last night when i got Sarahs call My heart skipped about a million and twelve beats! I no hes fine and what not. but its so sad and it really hit home. I miss him. and i want to see him and no what happened. and make sure hes ok and. enough said. I just read the entry on whatcomesnext about the time i told him to fuck off. and it makes me sad b.c no im extremely worried. and if i was to see him. what do u say to someone you once told to fuck off and that thye disgusted you. after they brake their neck. i dunno. NE way i have just way to much time to worrie about this. I HOPE IT WASNT HIM.. I HOPE IT WAS SOMEONE ELSE. patterns of misery cover my body one for a cry for help two to rid my pain three to never turn back all because i deserve it! my heart gaurded the wall of misery the wall of let down my guard built up but ill prepared for this moment when u saw me behind the mask under the lies beyond the outside pain to the real me u see me bleeding inside!