im HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have friends i have fun i love guard im content with the way i am. really A lot of thing that had been scarrying me about myself are gone.. colorado was good for me.. i thought a lot.. and im not turning into who i thought i was im FINE i always wanted to live with no regrets and i relized i am.. the only thing i rergret a little.. is quiting ice skating. but if i didnt do that then i wouldnt be the happy person i am today.. stiland i could l be smoking all the time and shit.. but i was also happy there.. I dont regret things b/c what i did makes me who i am.. and nothing but moving here depressed me but if i hadnt moved her i might now be the way i am now.. and theres not piont in regrettign ne thing b/c i cant change it.. i mean i can start ice skating agian but i have already lost so much pracitce. when i can drive i have been thinking about goin and taking the jump and spin class at kirkwood and paying for it myself.. but i dunno yet. i dunno but i only regret that a little. b.c while i was in springfield i relized i do care about gaurd almost as much as i used ot care about ice skating.. i mean the meddle i got isnt as nice as ice skating btu ill get over that i think a lot of this came to me in springfield.. i thought a lot in coloraod. but while i was in spring field i was so happy. and it was the same feeling i have most of the time. and i no there are a few people who totally do it for me.. who when im around im just automatically in a good mood. but making friend with the Eureka girls and talkign about how im like Hanna and anna and how i love Jean. i dunno cheering on Jean with them somthings just felt right.. i felt somthing thsi weekend i havent felt in a long long time. i mean take away our playstations and were a third world nation!