WOW so i just wish i wasnt a pussy. i need to learn to express my feelings. because i need to take these chances. i need to live. I spent like 5 hours with him and it never came up. i dont no what we talked about or what we did btu it never came up. actually i do no. i didnt fucking talk b.c i only had one thing to say and taht thing wasnt coming out therefore i said nothing. for five straight fucking hours. that pisses me off. im mad at myself. To make everything better he really led me today. like more hen he has in a long time. Its fucking the meanest thign anyone could do. and i now feel bad for any boy i ever gave hell to including travis even though he didnt no what was going on. I think this obssesion is a way of karma coming back around. i fuckiong down to like 1.5 a day b/c i want u to like me. im down there b/c i want anyone to like me. i cant tell if it is helping though. i dont see it. but i mean it must be working a little i hope. i need some water. well right now i need to go read the great gatsby! wo0t to that. but well. u no. ill be back. ~*kisses*~korkie