wow. that is basically all i can say. that episode of laguna beach makes me regret every night that my good friends are out and i go out with other people. wow. U no there are people who have had the same friends since they moved here or since grade school. and u no what i might not have that but i have damn good friends. and i love them. wow. i always hated not having friends for a long time. but u no what who cares. i have them now and some for like almost 3 fucking years. and that is good for me. and i just need to like that and not think about the things i dont have. i no for the next two years right now who i want to be friends with. and who i want to stay close with. and it doesnt seem to out of my reach right now. there is one obsticle. and today it didnt seem like one. btu then i just look back a couple weeks ago and there it is. i dunno. i no that when i leave i want everything to be resolved. u no.. but sometimes i wonder if there is a problem at all. if it is resolvable. and if we were ever realy friends. anyway.. i love my friends. and wow. i just cant believe some are graduating now..and the rest only have one more year after that..hot damn. love!! Time, where did you go? Why did you leave me here alone? Wait, don't go so fast I'm missing the moments as they pass Now I've looked in the mirror and the worlds getting clearer So wait for me this time I'm down I'm down on my knees I'm begging for all your sympathy But you (I'm just an illusion) you don't seem to care (I wish that I could) You humble people everywhere (I don't mean to hurt you) Now I've looked in the mirror and the worlds getting clearer I'll take what you give me. Please know that I'm learning So wait for me this time I should've know better I shouldn't have wasted those days And afternoons and mornings I threw them all away Now this is my time I'm going to make this moment mine. (I shouldn't have wasted those days) I'll take what you give me. Please know that I'm learning I've looked in the mirror My world's getting clearer So wait for me this time