Im reading the sequal to a time for dancing finally. Your dead to me.. i feel the same way about you as this girl feels about her best friend who died. i have hide form it and i have run from it.. i cant do that forever...and the farther i run and hide the worse i feel inside. today everythign is just shit. i tried to have a good day with my dad b/c we had been good latly. and i just get it thrown back in my face.. i have found that no matter what i do my parents just dont trust i have tried so hard latly and it just doesnt matter. and my mom can tell im unhappy agian and she doesnt care.. but on the fon she cant im crying..but i cant stop and i have i have to go out to dinner with my grandma but i cant b/c she cant see me like this.. and i dunno what to do.. brandon but thats a whole nother story. and then theres my text message and hell if i care about u anymore.. only i do.. and i cant stand it.. and then i thought wow mayb if i go wiht my two best friends tonight ill feel better and mayb feel like normal..even though this feels more like normal then a month ago does.. and i just want to be on my own.. and i want to no people are there for me..or they arent i want my fon to ring.. i want the life i used have except i want to b happy instead of sad.. i through it away about two years ago i through it away and i cant have it back. today was good until my dad became all crazy nad i was happy i was home and relaxing and it just all went away agian.. i just need to get away.. i dont no what to do.