Graham ended up coming in on the Tuesday night, and we spent all day Wednesday together too, before I dropped him off at his hotel with his parents/Katie. It was a great time :) I love him. And I got to see him on the monday, as I went to the airport to see them. I ended up sitting around for two and a half hours waiting for them (GRAHAM!) but it was worth it. as for now, I am currently in Dauphin, sitting in Grahams living room watching TV and am using his lap top. I am so happy to be out here! its a nice vacation from work, I truly enjoy it. I got here yesterday. My bus was about ten minutes late (four and a half hours on a bus just to get here... yikes). Grahams dad picked me up at the bus depot, then brought me home to his house. I dropped my stuff on, and then we were about to go to his moms work to say hi to everyone when Graham texted me and said hed be home at 3. Since it was already 2:45, I stayed home and his dad went to drop some stuff off before picking Katie up for her baseball practice. Graham came home, and we got uh.. "reaquainted" for 6 minutes, lol. Then his mum came home, followed later by Katie and her dad. Katie loved her cookies, she laughed so hard. My skor cookies are apparently a big hit, so I will have to make a whole bunch more for next weekend. We watched some episodes of House in the basement till dinner was ready. Holy crap, sooo good!! lol, i was so full. After, we went back to the basement and just lied around. I started to tease Graham, and he was getting rather, uh, happy, so i surprised the shit outta him and actually went through with the teasing and finished him off. He couldnt believe how good it was!! haha and his parents were right above us, like 3 seconds away, up the stairs. But yea, he said it was very possibly one of the best hes ever had, it took him soooo long to recover from it. Over a half hour later, when he was doing okay, we went for a tour of Dauphin and wen to the Dairy Dip for ice cream :) it was delicious! I got this fudgy turtle thing. MMMM! After we came home, and instead of watching tv, we went to his aunts to see everybody who was minnowing. His aunt gave us a tour of her house, and proudly showed off all her fishes :D lol. Then when we were leaving I suddenly had the impulse to hug his aunt goodbye? haha it was kinda awkward but Graham and I laughed about it later. When we got home, we watched and episode of Family Guy, then everyone went to bed. This morning, he woke me up before he left for work by crawling into bed with me :) I opened my eyes to see him laying there, it was awesome :) he gave me a kiss goodbye and then was off to work. His parents left at about 8am too. I woke up at 10 to my alarm, as I had to feed Chuckie their cat. He is a diabetic and thus has to be fed. He is a silly cat, and im not sure if he likes me or not. He was hiding from me earlier! Graham has an island in his kitchen, and Chuckie was hiding behind it and just poking his head around the corner to watch me. Speaking of the little kittie, Chuckie just came to the door from outside and jumped up and dragged his body down it. Thats his was of letting people know he wants to come in, lol. But yes, not sure yet if Chuckie likes me. Anywho, after feeding him and letting him out, I went and showered and got ready. Then I walked over to Amy Peacock's work (which is also where Grahams mom works) and met her for lunch. She introduced me to the two girls who work in her office with her, and then brought me over to show me to the ladies Grahams mom works with. She goes "girls, this is Pam" and theyre just like, "oh hi" and then Amy goes, "Shes Grahams girlfriend" and then it was just like "OHHH!!! HIII!!!" ahahahaha it was so funny. Then at that moment Graham called me, to say he was going home to feed Chuckie before meeting us for lunch, and I said I was gonna feed him when I got home, and the women in the office are like "ohhh shes feeding Chuckie already! Oh shes part of the family already, they've got her married off!!" lol, i was laughing while talking to Graham, he couldnt figure out what was so funny. After we finished chatting with the ladies, Amy and I drove to Pizza Hut for their lunch buffet. Graham got there about 5 minutes after us, and we all sat and chatted. It was wicked, and the food was reaaallllly good. Graham dropped me off at home afterwards, and thus leads me to now. I showed him a peek of my new lacey underwear, to give him something to think about while at work for the afternoon... lol Im really tired right now, So i think I might go into his basement, put on a movie, and take a nap in the dark. I have a little plan for Graham for when he gets home... might include a school girl skirt, lacey black booty shorts, and a big empty bed/house. heh ;) And then I'm gonna make him dinner, and then we'll just hang out at night. At ten or so, we are going to some party, because Graham wants to go show me off or something. Lol, im supposed to go meet all these friends of his. Im not worried, Im pretty good with people. And I look kick ass in my new shirt/capris, so im set. As Graham said at lunch "I noticed the shirt right away, you look really good!!" hehe :) Right, well now that I've gushed out the last few days, I think i might go take that little cat nap. Maybe Chuckie will come curl up with me? haha, probably not. Only two hours till Graham gets home!! He is the greatest guy ever... it honest feels like we've been dating for years. And its only been two months. I pretty much jumped into his arms yesterday, I was so excited to see him. He treats me soo good, and is always telling me how beautiful, gorgeous, pretty, hot, sexy I am. and hes been saying I love you non stop lately, its really cute :) I could never get enough of him saying it to me. but yes, nap. Ill write more later.... wish me luck for the night!! ♥

and like that, he's gone home :( I didnt cry as much as I thought I would today. But I also cried last night, and bit on monday... and a shitload on Saturday. We've seen each other every day for two weeks. intense or what? Thats either gonna make things easier, or make things harder... I will soon find out. He's gonna be in the city next wednesday to go for a flight to BC for Katie's volleyball. I tried to hint to his dad today (as we were packing Graham up) that they should come in early during the day on the wednesday, so I can see him. Graham and I have decided that we'll see each other no matter what that day. Which means only 6 days till I see him. And then who knows after that tho... I will manage... I have to. He is so amazing I could never let go over this. And I have some pretty sweet nights lined up for this week... Wednesday, tonite = Chelsey Thursday = Andy Friday = Marek Saturday = Jills social and then i just need to find ways to amuse myself for sunday and monday, as tuesday i close at work and thus wont be going out. Just 6 more days... I love this boy so much. ♥

He said it. last night :) I love you. ive never had a connection like this, a feeling like this before... and ive been in two two-year relationships. He makes my heart smile so big. He treats me like gold. He means the world to me. And my heart is with him right now, in this difficult time for him. I love you sweety, I'm here for you whenever you need it. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

...well maybe im just lucky, cause its hard to believe, believe that somebody like you could fall for someone like me... The more I hang out with this boy, the more I fall for him... its insane. I have never been treated this well by someone ever.... my face always hurts from smiling. He tells me i spoil him, but I dont think I do. He deserves everything i do for him, and more. I wish i could give him more. When he tells me he really really likes me... i smile so big. Its only been just over a month, but theres something there that I cant deny. I dunno, i mean ive been in two other serious relationships, both lasting two years. This sort of connection with the others took many many months. And now... we've had this crazy connection ever since we started. We're so alike, and everything is just perfect. HE is perfect, its so insane. Like i said before, he does everything that i love, yet ive never told him to do any of it. And he appreciates my surprises and my spoiling... noone else ever did. I lived with him on Rez for the weekend, since my parents were outta town. It was very possibly the best weekend ever. Not only did I get to fall asleep in his arms twice, but I got to wake up to his smiling face and his little "hi" twice as well. It was the best thing ever. Friday i met his parents. I was soooo scared... i spent $60 and 3 hours of my time getting ready for it, lol. It went well tho, his mom smiled once we walked into the restaurant? haha so i took that as a good sign. And i shook everyones hands hi, and we sat and had dinner. His mom is a very chatty woman, which is perfect for me because I really just never shut up (all through school, the only negative thing on my report cards was "talks to much" lol). We discussed everything a lot... and then they bought me ice cream :) lol, and i laughed, it was nice of them. And they payed for my dinner! which they didnt need to... i had money... Katie didnt talk much, Graham says shes shy. I say its because she didnt get a chance to get a word in, lol. After dinner they had to leave fast to get to Katies game, so Graham and I went and walked a lap around the mall. Then we went to Rogers and bought movies (bad pam! damnit i need to stop buying things, i have no money lol) HOWEVER i bought discs 2, 3, and 4 of the second season of House. I think i was about ready to cry when I saw those... i snapped them up in a second. I bought Graham a movie too, just because :) lol. Then we raced over to Balmoral school to watch Katies games. She won both, which was awesome :) shes got a good team. We sat at some chairs while waiting for the game before Katies game to finish, and I could see his mom watching us from where they were sitting... I hope she could tell how much her son means to me and how I'd never hurt him ever. Then Katies team started to play, so we moved and sat with his mom and dad, and his mom and I chatted most of the time. she told me the cutest thing! Last weekend, while Graham was home for Easter he got plastered one night, and came home at 2am to everyone still awake. He was apparently walking around the house talking about me in his drunken stupor? LOL his mom was like, "graham came and sat down right next to me, and was like, you really really have to meet her, because i really really like her" hahahaha...i think i went like, 5 shades of red when she told me :):) hes so sweet. OH and when we were climbing down from the bleachers, his mom and I both almost whipped out... hahah it was so funny. we high fived each other when we had stopped laughing. Then we walked with our arms around each other... lol, it was cute. His mom is awesome. After the game they dropped us off at my car, and then they drove off.... we pulled up at red light next to them and graham turned our music up really loud... and his mom started rocking out in the front seat! hahahaha, it was sooo funny. Then we turned the opposite way they did and we were off.... and only like, 3 minutes later, Grahams phone goes off, and its his mom, who goes "so, the three of us were talking, and we really like her..... shes very nice....and really pretty. You're very lucky, so don't be stupid. Be nice to her." hahahaha and hes just like, "yes mom" and that was it. When he told me my face smiled so big its insane. I take it I made a good impression? lol. I was rather happy to hear that... i smiled the whole way back to rez. When we got back to rez we watched two episodes of House, and then went to bed. It was amazing falling asleep in his arms again. Saturday we woke up, had muffins and talked, then we showered and he went to the library for the afternoon to study. I was supposed to study, but ended up taking pictures and playing around in his room, lol. We went for dinner with the guys, then he went back to the library to study and I... studied? haha no. I went and played frizbee with some of the guys, then came in and got a bit of homework done. Graham showed up later with Dave, and the three of us chatted for a while. Then I drove Dave home to his apartment, and Graham and I went to get subway. After that, he was exhausted, so we just went to bed. Sunday we had chocolate milk and muffins again, then showered and he went to the library. I spent the afternoon cleaning his room and dancing to music. He came home early from the library, so we watched a couple episodes of South Park. Dawn and Pat stopped in for a picture :) and then we went for dinner with everyone. After we just took pictures again and goofed around, and then I went home. It was so sad :( we didnt want to end the weekend. Still, best freaken weekend ever :) ...and I know that its so cliche to tell you that every day I spend with you is the new best day of my life... ♥♥

we cried yesterday. I dont want him to go home, I dont want him to leave. They want him to start work as of May. Which means he wont be able to come all the times we had planned for May. Which really sucks. And with all his exams, its going to be hard to see him too much. But we've got some good plans for hanging out before its all done. Im living at rez with him for the weekend, and the 24th/25th is just us. noone else. And we'll probably cry then too. niether of us are looking forward to the summer. The more time we spend with each other, the more we fall for each other. He keeps telling me how much he likes me... "i hope you believe me when i tell you much i like you pam..." hes such an angel, im so lucky. sigh, i hate dauphin, lol. We'll manage. someway, somehow, well do it. im meeting his parents and Katie on friday... im scared. ♥

can you feel your heart beat racing... i sure can. when im with him...even hen im not with him, i can feel it racing. he treats me like gold. like im the most important thing ever. like theres no other girl in this world. and we've only been dating for two and a half weeks. he is just.. amazing. i cant believe it there arent guys like him out in this world anymore, yet i somehow managed to find the one that is. i dont understand how i did it. I smile all the time now, i probably look retarded due to it. but i cant help it, he makes me happier than ive ever felt. Hes amazing. he treats me with so much respect tho, which is the best part about him. his parents raised him well. If theres something im not cool with, we dont do it. no complaining from him or anything. Hes wanted to do it since we started dating, but i told him i wanted a relationship, not just a fuck buddy. and he completely understood and agreed, and thus we havent yet. he told me whenever im ready, we shall, and that im worth the wait. hes too damn amazing. i dont know how i got so lucky... i feel so special around him. nothing makes me happier than when im with him. "it's crazy how much i like you already..." "i would, i would do anything for you." he is my angel. i would give this boy the moon and stars if i could, because he treats me so well. I've never been appreciated this much before... he loves the little surprises i always give him, and is always so happy. his friends are just wicked too. his friend jaime told me last weekend that its like im part of the gang already. That i just fit in so well. they are stoekd that i love video games... last weekend while i was sitting there playing halo, drunk, with the 15 guys or so, they spent a half hour complianing how their gfs dont like video games, or that they dont even know what halo is. meanwhile i was beating everybody because im just that wicked. haha they didnt believe me that i had never played before. But i really hadnt. And graham wasnt even in the room, he left to do some poster stuff, so i had sat with the guys and played vids. it was wicked. i cant do that and drink anymore tho, haha i got toooo drunk. Ben tells me he loves me when we say goodbye. Dave has told me that he loves me too. And Jaime said "if you to break up, we're keeping her", lol!! his friends rock my world. but yes, back to graham. he is my angel, he is too amazing and too sweet. i dont know how i managed this. i cant remember the last time i cried. although i could probably look in here and see when it was. crying doesnt even register with me these days, because im always so happy. i have yet to hear anyone say anything bad about him too. He is amazing. my dad loves him, my sis thinks hes cool. the girls in the deli think he sooo hot and that "i did well this time" lol. they are proud of me. and so am i. i want to spoil this kid rotten, because thats how i feel when i hang out with him. he does everything i love, but yet i have NEVER once told him to do any of it. he holds my hand. kisses me hello and goodbye. cuddles with me infront of his friends. caresses my skin and plays with my hair. compliments me all the time. Calls me sweetie, beautiful and hot stuff. he does anything he can to make me smile, because he loves to see me smile. he is amazing. i've never been treated like this before, and its weird. im not used to it. but i will never complain... i am SO HAPPY with him. Thank you andy for pushing him into talking with me. That was one of the best things andys done for me since we broke up. marek asked me to describe graham to him, so i said "think of how many times andy made me cry when we were dating. now times that by 30, and thats how many times grahams made me smile in the two weeks we've been dating." he is my angel, and I could not be happier. but i will be sad in april, when he goes home to dauphin. we were both worried about it. and we still are. I told him that i didnt want to get involved at the beginning, because i didnt know how id manage in a long distance relationship. But the more i hung out with him, the more i realized i found a 1 in a million guy, and i wasnt ready to let go of that. It will suck when he goes home, but we will make it work. every weekend we have off we will try to see each other. i will try to go out there, and vice versa. I dont do long distance things, but he will be back in the end of august. And for three weeks in July im gone. So that leaves only three months really. And last year he said he didnt start at highways till june, which means he had may off. and i dont get too many different hours during may and june, as thats when everyones still in school. so hopefully, hopefully, we can manage. I trust him with my heart, so i know he wont cheat on me. and i clearly would never cheat on him either. It will just suck not getting to see him. So i figure ill buy him a webcam before he goes, so we can still see each other a little bit while hes gone. It may not be in person, but if i can see his face and hear him talk, i will be happy. he is too amazing to let go. and i agree with what he said, its crazy how much i like him already. hes just perfect, i dont know how i managed this. i dont deserve it. ♥♥

i've finished the race. in first :) hes adorable, he coudln't stop smiling last night. we went skating, where i kicked his ass in all skills except for sliding/hill jumping, hahahaha. Its cuz im fatter than him. lmfao....and then after we went back to his place and watched Twister... he was the first to ENCOURAGE me to speak out all the lines (cuz i sure as hell know every single one in that movie). He was impressed...hahaha. one of his friends just walked into his room when we were all curled up on the bed...haha he walks in, looks at us and the movie, and just walks right back out... lmfao. and some guy was yelling "gigidy gigidy" from the hall, hahaha. cute, his friends are hilarious. and then we kissed. and he asked. it takes us forever to say goodbye. I can not WAIT for saturday. I get to use the car :) so im drinking/staying over. and then were going out for breaky in the morning, and possibly out for lunch with his parents. And then my moms bday dinner on sunday. his dad and my mom turn the same age on the same day. shit, the connections with this kid are CRAZY. i feel spoiled when im with him. "AND HELL YEA IM THE MOTHERFUCKING PRINCESS!" school time tho (like im gonna be able to concentrate...) peace homeslice ♥♥

nice girls finish last is usually the motto of my life. because no matter how nice i am to people, i usually get kicked in the butt by them. however... it seems like lately ive been pulling into the lead... :) ♥

so the birthday came and went and now im 20. Garret and I made friends after I was a bitch to him. Whatever, he deserved it. He was a douche bag. He says he wants to still hang out, but I know that will never happen. He never talks to me in the first place, so w.e, life is easier without his crap. And my birthday was intense. So much fun both nights. Thursday for my bday we went to Wiseguys and I danced and got just wasted. I partied with Chelsey and Melissa the whole night, which is awesome cuz those two girls are sweet. And I danced with a boy all night, cuz hes cute. There was actually a pretty big group out there for my birthday,like at least 20 of us or something. Insane. And of course, i busted up my toe... kicked a broken beer bottle and cut up my toes, and then i ripped my big toe nail off, lol. Im awesome! Friday I had a little house party at Mareks, and it was awesome as well. All the st.vitals (minus jeff as he worked, and breanne and curtis cuz they had no ride) came over to Mareks and we all just hung out. Adam bought me a huge ice cream cake, Andrea got me a card, Ian bought me the Beck cd, Andy bought me Silent Hill and made me the saddest bday card ever, lol, Joel bought me two plastic guns with bullets that are just crazy fun, and Marek spoiled my ass. He bought me cinnzeo cinnamon buns, he printed off and framed our Douche picutre, and he bought me MOTHER FUCKING HARRY POTTER SCENE IT!! ahhh ohhh baybee, when I unwrapped that, my jaw dropped and i turned to him and said "marry me". lol, too funny. Took a bunch of pictures too tho, which is awesome. and in other news... there was five guys who wanted to ask me out on my bday? haha wow I dont know how to deal with this one. There was.... James -- my drunken engineer friend. Thinks im the hottest thing to grace this earth. he used to hit on me when I was dating andy, lol, and it was the funniest thing ever. Mike -- met him last week at Erics party. He's pretty cool, really shy tho. He knows/doesnt like Garret as well, hahahaha Jordan -- haha this one isnt knew. Hes such a good friend, and he spoils me too. Hes sketchy at times tho, but nonetheless, I like pretending to figureskate with him, lol Joel -- CJS kid. Met him a week or two ago, but hes super cool. We talk a lot on msn, hes very chatty. Apparently hes been ranting to Marek about me and how wicked he thinks i am (i tell you girls, if youre a video game nerd you can get any guy, lol). Graham -- yet another engineer, lol. Hes so freaken cute tho! I danced with him all night, and he kept saying such sweet and cute things to me!! aww i liked it, lol. And he was kissing me on the shoulder or on the cheek when we were dancing. Adorable. And we held hands all night, hahaha :) I talk to him a lot on msn too, we've got the same intrests and are just stoked on it, lol. boy oh boy. Theyve all got their ups and downs tho. -- James has my number, always says hes gonna call me or text me, and then doesnt. Slim chance buddy -- Mike is kinda shy, i don't really know him well as I only have him on my myspace. -- Jordan is... hahah jordan. He would treat me like gold, but he has been known to use girls, and also has a bad record of dropping me for whichever girlfriend he has at the time. So its kinda iffy with him. If i was to pick a top two, it would be Joel and Graham. -- Joel is wicked cool, but i've been told he cheated on his last girlfriend, which makes him loose like a million points in my books cuz i hate cheaters. Other than that, hes got a job and a car and loves zombies, video games, and dinosaurs too. Hero and a half! lol. Hes good looking, but his style could be better, lol. -- Graham is hot, dresses good, and so easy to talk to. Hes humble and sooo funny too. Hes cuddly and sweet, which are obviously two things i look for in a guy. However, he lives on rez and does not own a car, which makes hanging out difficult. Nor does he have a job, so little money for him. And he goes home for the summer, so in like, 2 months hes peacing out, lol. im so not used to this whole dating scene... its weird. Ive never had this many guys like me before at the same time, lol. fuck life. I should pull a Julie Cooper and just say screw guys! lol

i have the most fucking kick ass friends i could ever ask for. best birthday parties EVER. holy shit. sooo many pictures. i love everybody right now, its insane. I GOT MOTHER FUCKING HARRY POTTER SCENE IT!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i opened it, my jaw dropped, i turned to marek and said: "marry me." lol, so rad. ill write more tomorrow tho, because now its off to CHELSEYS FOR HER BEACH BIRTHDAY PARTY!! woooooot summer. if only, hahaha. mad love guys, mad love. friends fucking rule. ♥

sooo i give up with boys. there all stupid. lol, and g-unit fits in with that category. Really just dooooooooont care anymore. Oh, and I like to slap meat. with Trisha and Michelle. We're the best meat slappers out there... hahahahahahha. i love my work :) AND im going on a ROAD TRIP! NEXT WEEEEEK! wooo hooo i am so freaken excited. Andy, Al, Alex and I are going to Sasky to see Mel. Gone for four days. 8 hours in the car with those three (16 in total) is gonna be ABSOLUTELY FUCKING HILARIOUS. oh god yes. Al and i sat on the phone on thursday catching up. She doesnt like heather (Andys new girlfriend) lol, so we enjoyed what we had in common. :) Apparently their parents still talk about me all the time (i will never be replaced, *insert evil laugh*). His mom cooked me my favorite meal last night, and i loved her for it. i brought cheese cake for dessert :) lol. oh, and this is the best part. He goes up to his mom and is like "hey mom, guess who im dating!" (assuming his mom would say the obvious answer being Heather, which is his girlfriend) and she smiled and got excited and was like "Aww are you dating Pam?! :D" AHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA i love that woman to piece. i want to move in, lol. And Pixie is my angel too, she still follows me around everywhere. best dog ever. so yea. that family kicks ass. Roadtrip next weekend, and then Wolfmother with Al on the 27th. fucking rights :D lol. and guys suck. they make me angry. STOP PLAYING WITH MY FUCKING HEAD!!! and p.s. - i give up on you. if you want me, you can come get me. I refuse to run in circles for you anymore. (but i still think you're hawt and i still like you :) lol)

So i shall start by saying... HAPPY ANTI-ANNIVERSARY ANDY! hahaha, today shoulda been two years (for real) for us, so we decided to have an anti-anniversary. We both hung out with our new intrests instead of hanging out together, lol. He did math with ...her. and I watched Ong Bak with Garret. And I said an insult to his manhood just as we were leaving his friends dorm, and as the door was closing you could hear all of them laughing and someone called out "ohhh i like her!" lol. so that made me pretty stoked. Heh, and Andy called me at like, 10:45, leaves a voicemail that goes "Hey, Happy Anti-Anniversary! Can't say i didn't call you! buh bye." lol. it makes me chuckle. Garret thought that was weird. bah w.e. nobody thinks andy and i should still be talking and hanging out, but neither of us care and we still plan on it. somebodys gotta kick his ass at video games, right?

to him: You must not know bout me You must not know bout me i could have another you in a minute, matter fact, he'll be here in a minute, baby You must not know bout me You must not know bout me i could have another you by tomorrow so dont you ever for a second get to thinkin, your irreplaceable -------------------------------------------- to the OTHER him: If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lay with me and just forget the world (whenever I hear this song I think of you. It just seems so fitting to everything. And its always stuck in my head. To add too it, right when you called me today, this song came on the radio. :) ♥)

im happy right now. and it feels weird. weird, but good. maybe things wont be so bad...

its over. and thats that. ill miss being happy for the next while...

So three days ago was my Two year anniversary with SitDiary. Wooo! hahahahaha, im such a nerd. As if two years of my life has been documented on this thing. anywho. another weekends come and gone. so yea, lets see what happened! friday -- showed up at andys to see al there. We hung out with her for a couple hours, then she decided that since she was being forced to go to this social, she was gonna make us too. lol, so whatever we were cool with that. After two hours of getting ready/driving around, andy and i showed up at Al's apartment and we all started drinking. We were playing this drinking game, and it was super fun. Al and i kept cheating and it was hilarious. Anywho, after nine andys mom came and picked us up, where we went to their house and drank with her. Then she went and dropped us off at the social. It was okay, everyone was older and i knew only the four of us. The best part of the night was when they played Al and I's song, Get Low. When it started, we just kinda gasped, looked at each other, screamed suuuuuper loud, and ran for the dance floor. FLASH BACK-- on the day after andy's grad, him, Al, Alex and I had gone cruising in the camero, and Al and I turned on Get Low, and cranked it up. Ever since then, that's been our song. Her ring tone on my phone is Get Low too, lol. Hahahaha that was AWESOME. After 1:30 Alex drove us all home. andy was a douche for a lot of the night, but whatevs, i had Al there. Seriously, I love how i've become "part of the family". Like i could comfortably hang our with Andy's sis, just the two of us. Its fun :) Her and I gang up on Andy, and she always tells him how much of a shitty boyfriend he is. lol, i love hanging out with her and Alex. Saturday -- worked till 3, showed up at Eriks to pick up the band. I drove them over to Studio 11, where we hung out for a bit then got to listen to the new demo. Its pretty much finished, and it sounds fricken AWESOME. i cant wait to buy one. After we drove the guys home, i slept while they jammed more, then andy and i went back to his empty house. I had brought over dinner and it was soo freaken good we couldnt move for like, 2 hours. We watched The Blair Witch Project....man i hadnt seen that since 1997. We then made the most of having the house to ourselves, showered, then curled up in his bed together and watched tv. i fell asleep, cuz im awesome, and finally went home at 1. sunday -- spent the whole day doing my essay. k wait, i lied. I started my BoSE essay at 10:00pm... and it was due the next day. haha however i finished it in two hours, so im content. anyway, Maury makeovers are calling to me, so im out. taaa ♥

So andy announced to our friends on friday night that im pretty much his favorite girlfriend, because we get along in such a disfunctional way, lol. ok, anyways. crappy week, school sucks, blah blah blah. Thursday marek and i said we'd chill, and we finally did at like 9:00pm, and andy came with. which was nice cuz then i got to see him when i didnt think i would :) the three of us just chilled and played video games. sweeet. my parents = retarded and made me be home by 11? Because it was slipper out? bullshit anddddd more bullshit. lol, oh well i dont care. friday i met up with andy and marek as his house when i was done work, and slowly everybody else randomly showed up. Ian, Breanne, Curtis, Jeff, Tarik and Aimee all came down. We just watched tv, and raided mareks food. Breanne and I stole all the oranges. mmmmm... Andy, Curtis, Jeff and I seshed timesplitters for a lot of the night. It was sweet, i beat curtis and jeff, and finally felt like a nerd. the guys were impressed with how far ive gotten, including andy. He was pretty stoked at how good im getting, and proud. Slowly everyone left, so I drove Ian and andy home and then went home myself. Saturday was sweet as well. slept in, then did homework for 5 hours. After i showeredm i showed up at eriks and the jam was...not happening, lol. So breanne and I sat on eriks bed, i did homework, she slept. When erik, andy and corey finally accepted that moe wasnt going to show, they stopped jamming. Erik/breanne and Andy and I decided to go on a double date, so the four of us grabbed food, and then went to see Jackass 2. SOOOO FUCKING FUNNY!!! breanne couldnt get in, cuz shes not 18 yet, so her and Erik went to see a different movie. After we dropped them off at eriks house and went back to andys. We cuddled up in the basement infront of the big plasma tv and watched Independence Day. It was great :) He is sweet. I told him i feel asleep smiling the night before, and he teased me, but was pretty damn stoked. After picking up his mom, we watched more tv and i finally went home around 2:30am :) sunday = homework = boring. but i have only ONE FULL DAY of school left, wahhooo! tomorrow. thursday i only have my morning two classes, and im free as of 11:15. yay i hate school! lol. oh yea, im gonna miss my grade sevens... a lot. next wednesday is my last day. Darian was sad when he found out theres only two days left. he said "i dont want you to go because you're the only one who cares about me and helps me with school. you're the only thing keeping me in this." hes a great kid.... theres no way im gonna be able to just cut the cord, im obviously going to have to come back and see those kids. Speaking of them, i totally destroyed my toe today playing "star wars" dodgeball. I was on Dylans hit list, and in the midst of dodging the balls, i hit my toe. The whole big toe is swollen and black and blue. the nail looks sooo ugly! lol. damn kids. after gym today, Darian, Dylan and I went down to the resource to do math. We had to keep writing assume in our answers, and they kept writing it ASSume...lol. boys will be boys. theyre super funny tho, i like working with them, when they want to work. :) *happy sigh* however i better be getting to work, i need to leave earlier, so i can hobble myself over there. right now i am super happy and am loving life :) (thatll end once finals start...) ♥

what a weekend! thursday andy came over. we disagreed like we've never disagreed before. it was sooo sketchy, he felt bad for making me cry so much. it was just all around BAD. it was something else, ill tell you that. however, things resolved after a couple hours, and he left on a good note. friday was fun...worked till 7pm, then went to Schillings at 10 with Andy for Andrews birthday. It...sucked? half the people there went off to smoke weed, so andy, andrea, marek and i sat and chilled in the living room and watched tv/took pictures. by twelve we wanted out, So andrea dragged Andrew away, and we left as well. Andy and I went and met up with Al, Alex and two other girls at THE DAK!! hahahaha yes! i can say ive been to the DAK now, lol. Its actually not to bad in there. Al's two girlfriends was a long time friend of hers and her sister...and they didnt talk. Al and i talked the whole night instead, and she was pretty happy when they finally went home, lol. Alex and Andy played pool all nite (theyre TERRIBLY awesome(?) pool sharks, lol) Didnt get home till almost 3....oops? Saturday. was. awesome. Andy came over around 6, we had dinner and just watched tv. Around 8 we left for Chelseys, where we sat there and I drank with them all. It was great to see Jess again (who was in from BC). i havent seen her since may. Shes a loud drunk :| andy and i left with headaches, lol. it was just good to see everybody too :) except justin who was kinda creepishly drunk. After andy drove my drunk ass over to Nates and we partied there. very interesting times there... Erik/Breanna and Andy/Me had a backwords sex race...to see who would last longer. LOL, oh my. we did it in nates bed before he did, lol! Oh, and oddly enough it was a tie. crazy funny. I got THE worst brand ever... andy said he got a taste of blood?? lol. When Andy and I came back upstairs, it was nuts. Everybody had gone into nates hot tub, and were now wondering around half naked. heh, poor corey, couldnt find his clothes and was walking around naked. Too many penis's that night...lol. Kyle passed out in Nates bear skin rug, cuddling the polar bears head, lol. This really annoying girl was kinda like, flirting with andy at the beginning, and both of us are just like...can u not see hes taken? So after our sex-capades, i was sitting upstairs and she comes over and is like "where have you been for the last hour?" so i said "fucking Andy in nates bedroom." hahaha, she seemed to piss off after that. Around 2 andy and I left, and i slept over in his basement. sunday was the laziest day ever and yet im so so tired, lol. Was woken up at 10am by Pixie jumping on my face and licking me. I had a headache but wasnt hungover. Just tired. I was supposed to go home around 1, but while eating the waffles andys mom made us for breakfest, she invited me for dinner. I checked with chels, she said it was cool if we re-scheduled cuz she was tired too, so I told his mom id stay. After showering and cleaning up, Andy started work and i just chilled in his room for five hours. I had a headache, so I watched tv for a bit, took a nap, and then andy was caught up with his emails so he came and played Timesplitters with me for a couple hours while watching for any new mail. Heh, then we curled up and watched tv and it was so gosh darn cute. :) and he kept sighing happily. Pixie was curled up with us too, that dogs my little baby. His mom made this huge delicious dinner and i couldnt do anything but lay there afterwards. We watched tv for a bit, and just talked. We know what were getting each other for xmas already, lol. then he drove me home, came into my room and beat this really hard boss that i was stuck on in Chrono Trigger. How sweet. Finally he went home, and im in a very good mood now :) awesome weekend :) it doesnt feel like its 11:50pm sunday night...should only be saturday afternoon. *happy sigh* ♥

FIRST OFF! CONGRATS goes to my cousin TARA and her boyfriend ROB, as they are now ENGAGED!! haha im so excited for her, Rob is a great guy and the whole family loves him. Wedding coming this summer, im so excited :) whats new whats new. Almost done midterms, so thats happy news. and one essay left. i have no motivation for either of them. so ive sat around in my housecoat for most of the weekend. awesomeness! Thursday was andys dodgeball tourny. by the time i got there, the guys had already played two games. they lost their third came and then they were out, so i only got to watch one game. sadness. lol, but it was good to see everybody again, i like andy's engineering friends. I walked up towards everybody and they all remembered me and my name, and were happy to see me. Roman looked soo hot in his moms baby blue nike shorts, a super tight muscle shirt, and a bandana in his super curly hair. AHAHAHA he reminded me of Arnie. Naikous first words were "omg you cut your hair!" lol. James was wonderful as always, that kids too funny. I was apparently on the team, as he made me join the team picture? lol... Afterwords Roman dropped us off at andys house, then we went and got subway and Nacho Libre. good movie, very much like napleon dynamite. it was a very good night, for its own reasons. something we didnt think would happen so soon...we both went home so super tired... (I love having the house to ourselves) friday night andy had the doubles show. there was such an awesome crowd turnout!! of course half the reason was the fact that there was other st.vital based bands playing, but still. Amanda Gibbs was there! so that was cool. And a couple of andys friends showed up, including the Brenden Salahko. Love that kid. Andys band got a lot of good feedback from everybody, which is awesome. Gordo and Billy J (from FREQ 107) loved the guys, and are looking to get them back on the radio soon. sweeeet. then i started falling asleep while still at the bar, so we andy and i left. i took a nap at his house when we got home, and then we cuddled and talked. :) saturday i did absolutely nothing during the day, and i love it. Then andy came over at night. We watched tv for a while, ate dinner, and then we went to get a movie. Watched Ong Bak, a thai movie. pretty sweet actually, some hardcore bone breaking in there, lol. after we just talked and laughed. hes such a silly kid, but he means the world to me ♥ :) and today ive done nothing again. lost the motivation for school and therefor blah. anybody doing anything for halloween? I have no plans and therefor sad. i went trick or treating last year :) lol, and then to Mikes for a halloween party. i love halloween :) ♥♥♥ p.s- im getting my hair cut again on friday, stoked or what? p.p.s- if you're doing nothing on friday, u should come down to the West End Cultural Center. The Pink Flamingos have a big gig there with a couple other well known bands. Including a transcona band. Tickets are 8 bucks. COME WATCH!! :)

So the boy im currently working with through my practicum has really come around. He said in SS today that he wanted to copy down all the notes so that he could take them home and study them. huh what? thats awesome that hes excited about learning now. In math, not only has he caught up to his grade (he used to be doing grade five math), but he now has a 95.5% in that class! only one boy is higher than him. He was sooo happy when he found that out today, he danced around the classroom. and i let him, because i am so happy for him too. He aced his test in math today as well, which made him even happier. i cant say that im the reason hes doing so well. Im not there every day, all day, so im sure he gets some other assitance. but im totally taking some of the claim on this :) lol. sooo hmm in other news. friday sucked. for all of its own reasons. i cried and i cried and i cried. before all that happened, the night was pretty sweet though :D Andy and I went and dropped off his amp, then we just kinda invited ourselves over to Jeffs, lol. After the three of us went to Finns, with Andrew, Smith, Schilling, Dan, and Marek. Haha it was super funny for the most of it. Smith was just HAMMERED!! that crazy kid seriously spent like, $100 bucks on drinks. Hogue was trying to make me feel better (i would rate you a high four. i only rate girls a high four when they have only one thing wrong with them. Whats yours? look at the guy sitting next to me hahaha). Marek was hitting on me, ahaha so i made fun of him. And it was just all around funny. The towel dispenser is STILL broken from andy on his birthday. how great is that? lol around 12 is when all the bad stuff happened. ick. Sooo saturday was sketchy. work sucked. bad conversations on msn during the afternoon. and then andy came over. He hugged me and hugged me and said he was sorry. Obviously we werent gonna break up or anything. weve been dating for nearly two years now, and we care about each other a huge amount. He really made me sad though. He said when he woke up that morning, and saw my note he felt absolutely terrible. "the thing that was the worst was that on the note there was distinct tear stains on it, and makeup. I knew you were crying hard when you wrote it, and when i saw that i just felt like shit." so thats good that he felt remorse over it all. id been having a really bad week, between school, friends, personal image (im getting faaaat) and then friday night. When andy was over on saturday, he said A LOT of nice things that really made me feel good. I smiled a lot that night, and im happy :) haha and on sunday i didnt even get dressed. since everybody was busy doing other things, i decided to dedicate the whole day to my essay. From 1:00pm till 12:00am, i researched and wrote my 3000 word essay. Im currently at 2600 words, and i havent even touched on my third topic, lol. so what do i have planned for the week? lets take a look see here: Monday - work till 7:30, then essay Tuesday - lunch date with ANDREA! home from school at 6:00, then just random homework and relaxing. Wednesday - Home from school at 4:00, then after dinner Jordan and I are hanging out Thursday - Bussing to andy's straight from school. Hes got the engineering dodgeball tournament that night, and im going to go watch again :D Friday - work till 7:30, then the Pink Flamingos show, then chiling at andy's big empty house (lol) saturday - NO WORK!! so sleeping in and then my english essay. Andy's coming over and im cooking him dinner, then we might go hang out with Jordan and them till they go to Bills, and we'll go home and watch The Omen. wooo exciting! i gotta get to work though....seeeee ya!! ♥ p.s- NIGHT OF THE LIVING DEAD IN 3D?! SAY WHAT SAY WHAT SAY WHAT?!?! ahahaah im sooo stoked for that one, andy and i are gonna go when it comes out. holy shitness.