wow, lifes going way to fast. ever since the show ended, everything seems to be coming to a close, and grads no longer a distant dream, but a scary reality. had our last drama class ever today...we did all the cleaning in three days instead of three weeks. theres nothing to do in drama anymore. so now i have english, spare, spare, lunch, coop. first the play finishes, then three days later were gone from these people altogheter. and for us grads, its for forever. we wont be there next year to see them in the halls. Coop only has 4 days left in our placements, including todays. thats beyond depressing, those kids are what i look forward to during the day. and ive only got 4 days with em! i will be crying tons next friday, its sooo sooo sad. ill at least have the field trip to the zoo with em to look forward too...but its so far away!! Tear. i think, in all honesty, im even gonna miss kyle, tyler, and possibly taylor and branden. u know ur attatched when ur gonna miss the brats of the class.... another way things are ending...today they had the elections for next years student council. next week will be the elections for next years grad chairs. everythings just drawing to a close so fast, its so depressing. im disapointed that this year couldnt last longer. on the topic of grad...man its getting closer. 39 days, thats it. we've waited 13 years for this (dont forget kindergarten), and now that the day is just around the corner, i wish i could run in the opposite directions. so many things will change after grad, so many bonds, friendships, and routines will be broken. everything will be different. i do not welcome this change, i would rather stay in TCI and take university with the same people we've been growing up with our whole lives. our class. i will miss all of em...man this is so sad :( probably gonna go out shopping for a grad dress tonite, if i get scholoship stuff done in a decent time (theres another signal of the end of the year...scholoships). I've also started my grad work out routine (if u want to call it that?) 200 curlups a night, plus a shiat load of other exercising steeze to tone / trim down my legs. my THUNDER THIGHS! hahaha yea. Andy isnt happy im doing this...last night at my house he was poking my stomach, and my abs hurt like a bitch, so i kept telling him not to. he asked why, so i spilled everything that i do before bed to him. he said i dont need to, that im perfect the way i am, and that he doesnt want me to change. He'd rather i not do any of it...but i want to look good for grad, not have my pot belly and thunder thighs. he then threatened me that if he sees me going overboard with working out and dieting and shit hes gonna hurt me. to be honest, i can see him going through with his threat too! and on that topic, of CJS people.....JEFF AND ALLANA ARE FINALLY GOING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeeee ha im stoked. alanas coming to grad now, its gonna fucking rock. They started dating last wednesday, but jeff told everyone not to tell andy, cuz he knew it would bug him to not know. andy finally found out last night. Great thing is andy and jeff are best friends...lmfao what a relationship. But yes, im soo stoked on that, their grads gonna be sooo awesome :)