god im soooo bored right now! lol, i have nothing big to write in here, but yet im doing it anyway. Right now i SHOULD be working on the europe trip writeup for the yearbook, OR my essay for co-op, OR my valedictorian speach...but you know me. its my procrastination side coming through. my life is just one crazy busy ball right now. and it will be til we get back from lilac. HOLY POO AM I EVER STOKED FOR THAT! but more on that later. these next few works are completely full of stuff...grad, university, friends, school, teaching, Andy. yikes its nuts. i dont have much time to just sit down and relax. well i probably do but u know, i like to exagerate at times. still, its gonna be nuts, and lilac will be a nice holiday. and a wonderful way to start the summer. now about lilac. WOOO LILAC!! holy crap im stoked. Talked to andy last night for almost an hour (shitaz!) and i think Lilacs all figured out. It shall be: Kristina and Justin (?), Chelsey and Brandyn, Randi and Bjorn (im gonna have to learn how to say his name before that weekend) Andy and me, and....*drum roll please* JEFF AND ALLENA!! yeaaa ha thats gonna be majour stokage. each person will probably have to pay for a meal each (as in paying for enough food for everyone for one meal in the weekend) yea. confuddling. but its gonna be sweet. get a couple tents, couple drinks, and PARTY! im soooo excited like theres no tomorrow. ONLY 27 MORE DAYS!! haha yea im stoked. itll be a tad expensive (bout 50$ after everythings said and done). Grad stuff is getting hectic too. 25 more days till our grad girls! thats crazy. i only have like, 4 more coop classes and 7 more english ones. and then im done high school for the rest of my life. insane or what? theres so much to do for grad! we still gotta decorate, still gotta write speaches (and i gotta do my valedictorian!), still gotta sell tickets, still gotta do A TON of things! including not killing james. very much stoked for grad still too...between mine and andys i cant wait. apeaking of andy. i havent seen him since sunday. 5 days. I REALLY MISS HIM RIGHT NOW! i miss his kisses, being in his arms, listening to guitar, or just lieing there in his bed and talking. i sound so pathetic right now, but i cant remember the last time we went 5 days without seeing each other. i think it was europe. is this a bad thing? i dont think so, i love hanging around with him cuz we can do anything and not care. and he loves hanging around with me. *sigh* oh well, ill be spending my weekend with him. going to his house Friday night, then shopping all day by myself saturday and his house that night, then hes probably coming out here for fireworks at the Hi Neighbor on sunday. sounds like a decent weekend!! all in all.... *blush* still miss andy :( ...you know what? for not having anything inparticular to really talk about, i sure still did a hell of a lot of talking. i think james is right...i really do ramble!! ...so let me hold you, touch you, feel you, always...